wishesfreedom

it's been a month since we're together...=]
full month love ! ( sounds like some baby full month...xD )
lol ~ hu cares....
muacks ! *hugs n kisses to my dear.... =P

i missed him sooooooooooo much now !!!!!!!!!!

how i wish to just run over to him and give him a hug and a kiss =X
nothing much happened to me recently, but i m gonna get more busy soon....
we're tryin to find each other tis afternoon....but failed... =(
awwww.....i din manage to meet him.... =/
i missed tat sunday...wanna freeze the time now... =X

ok....for the time being, i m feeling kinda bored...wanna watch twilight but aunty probably will be bursting in the door within 30 mins....so there won't be sufficient time for me to do so....conclusion, i shall forget about tat thought and watch it next time.... =|
Miss C is sufferin frm her love matters....deeply in dilemma ...pray for u ....gud luck ....
member to tell me when u've finally decided.... =P
i have a plan in mind now...but wat is it ? keke...never m i gonna tell u ! (at least, not now...)
ok, i've forgotten wat else i wanna say....so........... BYE ! =X
( sorry, i noe it's short and i m talkin crap basically... =S )



wishesfreedom

i watched it already ~
hurray ~~~~~~~ finally ~~~~~~~ weeeeeeeeeee ~~~~~~~~~~ =P keke....gila gila sikit edi....

Transformers : Revenge Of The Fallen


love it ~ :)
totally amazed ~~~~~~~~~~~ damn cool !
but din manage to watch with him....cuz went to watch with sze n miko today....
so, i guess we'll have to wait for the third 1 to be on screen.... xD
i felt so bad...cuz previously planned to watch with him 1....but at last didn't manage to....now felt so guilty... =/ give back u a kiss 补偿 ?? acceptable ? =X

plus tomorrow will be one month since we're together edi....till now we're still sweet ~~~~~ ;)

* soooooooooooooooo happy ~~~~~~~~~~~~

say congratulations or i will cut out ur tongue like they did in the movie of dead silence !
( haha.... just kiddin...dun take me seriously.... =P )
awwww....i missed him so badly .... felt like tying him around me and bring him back home with me ...xD haha....crazy rite ? xD
today we really rushed to the cinema for movie....
tis afternoon skipped Pn.Goh's art and went for treassure hunt activity in skool....
ok la....the game not bad geh.... just tat i bu shuang one malay girl .... we're suppose to line up and ans our question when we've figured it out geh....the girl cut my line and pushed me to behind....stupid ==''
are u tat desperate ?! can't wait ah....everyone aso lined up rite... @~@ swt !!!!!!! y push me ._.
later we rushed back and bath quickly to go to jusco....

thinking bout tat movie, i membered an article sze told me when she saw the newspaper today....a very eye catching title : Crazy Over Robots...
obviously talking about transformers...
there's this dude hu's like a super mad fans of transformers....he's basically obsessed over tat movie...jason something...forgotten his name...the amount of tickets he bought just to watch the movie is a bit...UNBELIEVEABLE ... =X cuz it's a little bit over....
recently, my couldn't wake up illness is takin over....arghhhhhhhh..........always late....today aso nearly late jor....now need put alarm clock in room edi....of phone rang and i dun wake up, at least my clock will wake me and i won't be late....

basically nothin much happened to me today la....so nothin much to write either... all i noe is i missed him a lot now....and i missed tat sunday with him ~ :D







wishesfreedom

splendid weekend ~
cuz i get to spend my time with him ~~~ my beloved 1 ! =P keke
tis whole week i get to see him everyday....
how great is tat .... xD
today i even spent most of my time with him... =]

went over his office there after church....
helped him to figure out some seni project stuff....
had a great time with him....
we went down and bought some colour papers then did all those cut and paste job together....
yea, i did it again....curi-curi took his pic....and he din realize it...
but even though after he did realize i didn't stop....i just continue snappin pics onfront of him...=P
hahahahahahhaa.....all the pics were sooooooooooooooooo funny !
and tis copy cat fella copied me ! he aso took his camera and start capturin my pics.... xD
i realize it....just tat i din say out loud oni mah... xD
and we had camera war....xD

awwwwwwwwwww............... i m sooooooooooooo happy today....
i just love having u around... =]
when i was tired n wanna sleep.... he placed a blanket for me cuz the room is air-conditioned and played some disney songs for me to sleep better....how sweet and thoughtful ....but at last i still can't sleep....dunno why... >~<
and yeap, basically we were plantting kisses on each others cheeks the whole time....i lost count of it...dunno how many times edi.... shhhhhhhh......... =X
dun u tink tats cute ? because i do.... =P
we even hugged each other....how warm n nice to be in his embrace....
after kisses attack we had tickle attack...NO....HE had tickle attack ... =S
i didn't attack or fight back....i was the prey.... T^T lol ~ xD
hahaha.....laughed so much....till i need to surrender even before he starts tickling me...

the food tat brought our first connection of lips...xD

and when we're eating some egg roll...i shared one with him...fed him usin mouth ... =X
and it's our first time for our lips to encounter each other...dun tink too much first....just pass by type...xD
when we're doing work he suddenly placed his palms on my cheeks, turned my face around to face him and plant a soft kiss on my lips.... * face red....
how adorable is tat....
then we continue doing the project work again....we searched the net to find out wat's pen knife in malay....and when we used chinese to translate to bm....the net really gave us direct translation....pen knife in bm is pena pisau....wat the heck.... =S
and lotsa weird and funny names came out so we continue laughing to each other there...
and guess wat ? on this memorable day of 28th June he kissed me on the lips for the first time....tis time, it's not pass by anymore....

after he drank water he came over and sat next to me....looked at me in the eyes....and suddenly kissed me on the lips...and our kiss grew into a long, slow and passionate kiss later... and it lasted for quite some time...=X
awwwwwwwwwww ~~~~~~~~~ how i missed tat feel of his tender lips on mine now....
and later he was singing to me songs....hahahahaha....really feel very "lam" lor....heart melted for him edi lor.... =P
when it's dinner time we walked to pasar malam and bought my dinner...his lunch...xD
yea...LUNCH...cuz we had big differences in meal time...xD
lol ~ when we're at pasar malam i saw a dude workin in cc stationary ....and h e asked me which cc...hahahaha....STATIONARY SHOP la sweetheart....not cyber cafe ~ xD
we bought our food and went back to eat....while doing so, we watched angels and demons....but din manage to finish up tat movie... =|
i allowed him to buy fried food cuz he is giving me those pity looks of his....dun let like very cham like tat....so at last i approved....but member ur promise ! u must drink lotsa lotsa water.... cuz ur throat aren't fully recovered yet....dun let me worry k....

alrite....it's runnin late....i gtg ~ 2moro have to wake up early....nite ppl ! ;)



wishesfreedom

awwwwwwwww............ he came today.... =]
i thought he's not gonna come since tat he was plannin not to come at first..... *touched
so glad tat he came....can see him =P keke....
today is the fourth weeks since we're together....can say is one month edi,...but to be specific, tuesday oni is one month .... =P hurray ~ *smile like mad ppl

oh ya....we're kinda "busted" today....
y is there inverted commas ?
cuz....we're not fully busted...
he was "phyical attacking" me today....we're like rocking chairs, banging each other but mostly he bang me....and coincidently, Siti Liah's car passed by...."GREAT !"
she stopped her freaking car ans asked him y is he doing so...
tats y .... HALF BUSTED...
but nth happened at last la....
we got off...safe n sound ~ phew !

while i was in class today ....
me n my classmates had such a great time....
we so called sang in class....i use the term so called because practically we were shouting....xD
it was so funny.....jing ying keep on sing with a different tone....wrong tune....
and cantonese song she sing with mandarin words.....tats really odd but funny....
we keep on sing half laugh sing then laugh again....i even curi-curi recorded some...xD
shhhhhhhhh........... =X
some of them even added in lyrics or some weird "come-in" in the middle and at the back....one of them is min hua....lol ! soooooooooo cute.............how adorable can she be ... xD

haha...previously we got try before "雨中漫步" but not like movie type walk in romance and slow slow geh lah...cuz scare each other fall sick...so we sped up .... wakakakakkakaa....xD
today is report card day.... aunt came to take report card....Shankar din comment much bout me but my report card result edi ROSAK....got calar at my result edi T^T haih...forget it....
dunno y recently i very careless....simply bang here simply bang there....make till here bruise there bruise...ouch....
open fridge door and bang it when i turn around...
leg bang into some cone ting while i was trying to cross the road...and the cone is NOT MOVEABLE type....so imagine how hard is tat...
elbow scratch till blades while i was brushing teeth...=S
why so many things bermusuhan with me geh.... >~<

today went to sze's house after open day....watched twilight and ordered pizza ...BUT ...the movie got stuck in the middle... =S din manage to finish the movie then change another movie edi....
change to stephen chow's movie....although i had watched tat same movie quite a few times but i still laughed watchin it....xD
after tat felt so sleepy and i terlelap on the sofa...xD
and my lens kena tangkap....crap....
iishhhhhhhhhhhhh.............hate her...........
now i got to wear back specs or change cons....@~@
need to go recheck my eye power edi cuz i forgot....wanna order new 1 also cannot....

when i reached home i watched dead silence....ok ok oni la...horrible looking puppets....but still i prefer drag me to hell....much better....
all the food i took today aso like not healthy food 1....
mornin ate maggi....afternoon had fast food = pizza.... then ate maggi again and dinner had fast food again = kfc... =S no healthy food.... =X
somemore bought mnm's chocolate to eat !
oh my....i m definitely gaining weight like tis....wan to turun balik to my normal weight aso face difficulties edi....
got a whole stack of homeworks waiting for me.....
i had no idea tat actually dreaming while u were asleep can make a person more tired on the next day.....so next time, dun ever wish a person sweet dreams when he or she is tired....xD

at tuition on friday, me and sze talked about our most outstanding dreams....
hers was REALLY OUTSTANDING....a totally LOL ! really can talk about creativity ~~~~ xD
story line tat can make into movie...just need to cut out some...kua zhang part...xD
well, my weirdest dream is a totally mixed up dream....i dreamt this dream while i was standard 3 or 4...sumwhere ther cuz i member i dreamt tis dream at kajang....
and i still member my story clearly....
i was standing outside the class of my old skool at kajang....but the weird thing is inside the class was maluri teacher teaching....my maths teacher,Pn.Chan....
and i wasn't being scold for not studyin in the class...isn't tat counted ponteng ? lol....but she can't seem to see me at all...

inside the class was filled with maluri n kajang friends....how on earth they get to noe each other n became so rapat ? well, tis is a dream mah....wat do u expect...sure weird weird things come out geh....and when i look up....i saw genting highland logo and roller coaster ! =S
wat the heck.....? my skool is at genting ? xD
i dunno hu...but i just knew sum1 is chasing after me in my dream....so i started to run....
i ran till a walkway....my kajang skool walkway tat's supposingly connect to the bus stop suddenly changed and connected to a petrol station i my dream....>~<
then at the station was a truck tingy....those used to take sand and stuff at construction site....the fella chasin after me drove tat thing and chased me in the petrol station....he never succeeded in chassin after me....we were goin round and round the petrol station like playing marry-go-around....@~@

then i ran into the toilet of the petrol station which supprisingly is the toilet of my grandma's house ! =S
and the most fantastic part is .... there's a huge caterpillar on the floor....yea, the caterpillar can TALK ! wow ~ how fascinating is tat....xD
oh my...how imaginative can my dream be....
lol ~ it told me : " Go tat way....go tat way ...."
and it's pointing to another door next to the toilet door i just came in ! ( sze said i had too much of alice in thewonder land...lol ~ i never come across of tat thought....xD )
two doors in a toilet ? and located so freaking near to each other till tat it's basically side by side...isn't tat weird....

and then when i open tat door....guess where have i reached ?

i am at Singapore's Orchard Road !

wow....short cut ! pass through a door and frm KL i came to Singapore....isn't tat fast n efficient ? wakakakkakakakaka....... xD and there's where my dream ended n i woke up....lol !
sounds short isn't it....i had no idea how they can stretch everything so long n fit into my slumber.... ( tats how great our minds work....we'll never figure them out... )
we learnt looking for a rain god during eng lesson...at the last page of exercise was four pictures....we're required to write brief discription about the characters but we joked on tat piece of exercise given....
writing them ugly, weirdos....things like tat....cuz the pictures are really DAMN WEIRD and not to mention, ugly looking....
we wrote stupid things tats funny n made each other laugh....xD

btw, * a note to the gud side of gemini : dun need to mind the post tat u saw so much...i dun mind can liao....just love u the way u are... dun tink too much, u r the best ! k ... ;)
dunno y ....my mind seemed to be fully occupied by u now ....

missed u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keke =P
i like to be near u....like very safe...xD haha....
ok....now i m feelin sleepy, time to sleep....nite nite ppl ~ =]




wishesfreedom

OMG ~~~~~~~~~~~~
busy busy busy recently.....
back to skool....homeworks tinggi segunung..... =S
haih....haven't online for 4 days thx to my dear dear homework....crap ~
now online aso because of my homework....thank u A LOT la teachers.... =="

on the 20th of June we went out again ~ yeap....i noe....it's just been a week n we are out again....xD
keke....went to 1U.....
first we went to old town for breakfast...
he's not really well tat day...sore throat... =(
so must control him....cannot let him simply eat things....=P
after buying movie ticket....we just went around wandering here n there....sat on the bench and chit chatted....then continue our walk ~ xD
while we're talking we saw so a kinda "weird" family....LOL....
the son was carrying a bag behind him .... a monkey looking bag....then the father not hold the son's hand.....he hold the tail of the monkey bag....so it's like he's actually taking his pet out for a walk or something....it's a cute n funny scene....but how can he treat the child like tat....come on, show some care la.... tats human ppl.... =S

we wanna laugh out but we tahan....n laughed secretly ourselves...xD
we went to popular and checked out on books...xD
haha...and we coincidently bumped into one of my tuition friend.... =X
lol ~ akward for a few seconds and he left for his books....xD
we went to one corner filled with those puppets tat u put ur hand in and act....
adorable...
especially when he put on the panda n acted well...lol ~ i meant WELL....*can consider acting career ? xD
he did those expressions and dialogue for the panda suitably....
the scene was so cute....
and we laughed heartily...xD
he just noe the way to light up a smile on my face don't he ? ;)
awwww.....i love him ~ =P


we watched "Drag Me To Hell"....
lol....the old woman really freaked me out....BADLY....
horrible lookin face....she just dun die no matter wat in the car park....no matter how she was being attacked....her face was even being stappled ! =S
and even though after she died, her image still haunts the girl....
and she definitely like to give u sudden shocks....with her horrible looking face...

CREEPY OLD WOMAN...

ewwwwwwwww !!!!!!

her face being stappled !! O.o ! *gross lady

we did held each other's hand and yea...he did give me hugs...though the position is a bit
weird...
odd case, but never mind....i believe we can improve on this ! xD lol ~
practice makes perfect ??
when we came out the cinema....the door openin and closing made sound creaking sounds....

*goosebumps

tat's the sign before the soul taker in the movie comes....LOL ! and we looked at each other and laughed....we took pictures together....though it's not picture perfect but he says never mind.... :)
*just make sure u dun show other ppl those imperfection....xD
haha....and we have camera war....taking each other's pic secretly at first but later we just take infront of each other....lol ~ capturing each other's bad moments ..... so in the future, we'll look back n laugh ! xD
alrite, i admit it .... we did plant kisses on each other's cheeks....but hey ! cheeks oni...these are pure kisses...we're "gud children"....isn't tat cute ? =P

okie, dun laugh...i noe it's weird to u all.... =X

we went to eat later....sat there....chatted n ate for more than an hour according to him...xD
sweet ~ time should just stop there isn't it ??
talked bout our past and stuff....but all matters is the future isn't it ?
where there's he n me ... =]
we took cab home....before i left, the taxi driver even asked me am i a Malaysian....
lol ~ i dun look like local ? xD
he thought i was some foreigner...and asked if he was my bf ? xD

just reached home and i missed him ~

ever wonder why i like to go against the things u said ? or why am i easily saying tat i shall leave ??
because...i like the feeling of being manja and pujuk by u.... =]
i love being coaxed by u ~
member the yellow colour flower stands for wat ?
i member u pulled me back when i say i wanna leave...
the feeling that i get to feel tat u dun wan me to leave...it just left me feeling contented...
i can be sure u will always be by my side....it's like having u around everywhere...
i noe tat u will "tam fan" me no matter what...=)
and u will always sengaja let me win... no matter how wrong i might be actually... =D
it's just great to have some1 around to care n concern bout u in every way...
to love u n take notices about u...
and i m glad tat's u ~

previously, i wanna write more ....but now i seemed to have forgotten wat i planned to write....so i guess this shall be the ending of my post ? xD






wishesfreedom
hmmm.... 我的姐妹最近好像很忙这样的。。。。都没见到她上网的。。。
我好像很久没跟她聊天了哦。。。。=X
刚才看了她滴blog。。。小姐, 有没有搞错阿。。。。我想找你聊天的。。。。你没上网
而已啦姐妹。。。。还敢说我不找你。。。。真的给你气死我了啦。。。
你好像很忙这样吗。。。。所以我不是不去打扰你了咯。。。。好心没好报。。。。
还敢讲我的坏话。。。。你想死哦。。。。xD
wishesfreedom


went out with him ~ =D

it's been two weeks plus since we're together....
our first date was on the 13th of June 2009 ~ *drumrolls and spotlights
me,sze n him went to sg.wang.... =]

we watched night at the museum 2 ....yesh ! it's hilarious....go go go ~ go watch ! =P
tat day....everything was fine....except...my hand !
arghhh.....i soooooooo wanna kill the fella hu bang me at the first place now....
we went roller....and there's one blind dude simply bang here n there thinkin himself damn pro....stupid....==''
my hand went bengkak tat very moment....terseliuh edi....T^T sob....sob....
i forgotten his look....all i member is he is a skinny dude in black shirt with dark skin....
from then on....i hate everyone inside the roller with the appearance mentioned above...
yea, i noe it's unfair....but blame HIM ! >=(

on our way going tat very day....we coincidentally run into a lot of our skool ppl....
yea....BIG GROUPS summore....duh ~ their eyes bulged up lookin at us....
i had a great day....cut out the hand injured part....

alrite...i noe i have not been updating my blog for quite some time edi....sorry la ~
i busy mah ~ =P so this would be a one shot kinda blog....sayin somethings tat occured these few days...
my hand is way better now...just tat i m still having bruises....blue-blacks ~ >~<
aunty went out on sat night....so, i have no idea where's the med....i just went to bed with tat bengkak hand....
obviously enough, it got worse the next day....oh, crap !
aunty mendera my hand at night T^T
she took out some cooked rice ( JUST COOKED SOMEMORE ! imagine how hot would tat be...=S )
and pressed on HARD to my hand....ouch !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it HURTS like... MAD ?!?!
*cries .... my hand turned red on the spot...it's like she planned to cook my hand....flesh aso masak edi la....
gosh.....after dinner she boiled an egg....( YES...JUST BOILED AGAIN ! =S )
burnt hand....hangus edi....just now tak patah....now terus patah edi...
after tat applied some other med and urut my hand myself....
then my hand kena balut by uncle....like mummies ! ( ok...tis is a bit exaggerating...)
then ate 2 blue pills...no idea wats tat...but since uncle ask me to telan aje....so i aso makan oni lor....

my cooked hand....=S turned red edi...look how bengkak is tat....=/

the difference between left n right hand....one flat....one bulged up... =|

exaggerating way of balut hand.... =X

took pills.... =\

gobble up without knowing wat on earth i just ate...
on mon, the most hilarious thing was in art class.....god ! he really made me laugh like mad....
he cannot tell the difference on animals ?? xD
i laughed till my cheeks and stomach hurts....cried out some tears even ! xD
ever seen giraffe eating grass instead of leaves ?? =P
sotong being called octopus...
and octopus being called jelly fish ?
i can't help but member all these.....i will definitely choke and laugh ! isn't he cute ?? xD
he's sick....havin sore throat...pray tat he'll recover soon...friday he's gonna go for competition...jia you oh ~ ;)
rumors do fly ! the news of us being together was basically well-known .... =X
ppl come and go asking and guessing....
when we're together i noticed tat lotsa ppl had their eyes on us....tis is akward....and at the same time spooky....

i got my chem's paper mark....*heads down and went to bang wall....
my marks were freaky low ! *roll eyes....
arghhh......... how can i be so stupid !?!? @~@
first time ever i tink i will like SEJARAH ESSAY paper ! i score 50 ++ over 60 in tat....wow ! even i m AMAZED....
but i wrote FREAKING LONG....hand aso wanna patah tat time edi....
tis sat heading to KB's Carnival....first time ever doin tat....
gonna go there with him.... =]
cui is really a bit mad at times.....the crazy penguin ?
she like to play with knife....which is a very dangerous habit of hers...because she'll put it near ur neck....=S
dangerous criminal.... =X
and she torture aunty's hamster !
she took the hamster and hold it towards a pot of bubur basi ! ewwwwwwwwwww.........
tell u.....dunno wat on earth was thrown into it...it stunk like hell ! *faint

i open a while to see wats in oni ....the smell diffuse so freaking fast into the air.... =S
it really smell like crap....horrible....and cui torture the hamster by opening the pot and hold it near the pot....
if she let go her hands...the hamster is definitely gonna be dropped in the horrible stinking pot of porridge....
as she held it near the pot, even the hamster cant take the stupid smell....it's struggling to break free from cui's evil clutches...xD
then she quickly closed the pot and put back the hamster into the cage....i pity the poor creature....
yea....by the time she did so....the kitchen stunk !!
OMG ~~~~ run for ur lives ! hide !!!!
even outside the kitchen can smell tat foul smell....*roll eyes.... disgusting !





wishesfreedom
yesterday was really a blast...totally LOL ~

how i love my buddies....they're wonderful ! =]
thank God tat they were with me....=P
after tuition yesterday went to yum cha with friends at Papparich...xD
lol....we ate, drank n chit chatted lots of stuff ~
everyone ! attack pf !! xD
hahaha.....we keep on teasing her with the "mr.p" incident .....
looi says the songs played there yesterday was really suiting pf's condition....xD
haha...before we all start orderin sze n pf wanna leave....but the waiter edi standin there waiting for us to order and we edi seated down....
me n looi aso rasa malu la.....how can leave like tat.... ( yeah ! high 5 sista ~ we had same thoughts...wakakakaka....xD )
while pf n sze tink there's nth wrong with leaving....o.O! ( brave-nya ~ )

we made the waiter stand there for quite some time cuz we can't make up our minds...keep on askin each other wat r u gonna order...xD
hahahaha....and when we gossips....we really laugh out LOUD ! i guess ppl's gonna look at us like we're some nut case ~~~
bleh ! hu cares ~ the point is we enjoy ~
i had never laugh tat long and mad for quite some time edi....
it's like a continuous laughter....non-stop punya ~ xD
all of us aso stomachache edi....
then we started simply takin each other's picture....later we show out our collections of "ugly pics" years ago...looi showin me mine....i'm showin her her's, sze yan's, pei fern's....all freaking funny and we burst out laughing...there's where we cant stop laughing at each other....

suddenly looi had tis idea pop out into her mind...watch movie at her house before heading home....and so at last we did so ! lol ~ amazing tat aunty let...but of course...she got blabbered a lot into my ear drums tis morning....
we watched The Happening....ok ok oni la....watched edi like no watch...no meaning de...=S
but never mind...more laughter is behind...where looi saw a chocroach....she claims tat it was a flying cockroach...so i thought it was gonna be very big but it's actually a medium sized one...xD
the hilarious part is....she jumped up when sze say there's a cockroach near by her when there's NONE ~ LOL !!!!!!!! the way she jumped up is a must watch ! xD
oh my gosh....laugh till i stomachache la....
she wanna go find the insecticide to kill it...but she cant find it...o.O ! *shocked ( looi...ur house leh .... )

so i went into the room to find....it's just located at the right corner side....stayin there nicely waiting u to take....and looi can't find it... =S
tis cockroach war lasted for quite a while....and later we just sit n laugh enjoyin the video tat sze recorded on how looi jumped...xD
lol ~ looi's like playin some martial arts kung fu at first ...tat "tai chi" oh my....everyone, laugh !
at last i killed the cockroach with the insecticide n leave it's mayat there...xD
looi's callin it ant and she's afraid of it somemore...aiyaya....xD
then she go video cam it....and says it still noes how to move....( ah kak....where got so fast die geh....wait a while la....xD )

the memorable poor cockroach defeated in the cockroach war....DEAD ~

as for today....

he's back since yesterday....but i cant pass him yesterday ...so i gave him the "surprise" today...haha....tat day he said he wanna eat the cake i baked....n yea....i really go and baked him one....tis time is fully made by myself edi ! my beloved Apple Pie Cheese Cake ~ wan some ??
it's confirm not like my previous cookies edi ! tis time is nice 1.... =P
i've missed him so much...so long din see till him edi....
i gave him the cake tis mornin and tomorrow we're goin out together ~ our very first date....
and it's ngam ngam two weeks since we're together....=D
yay !!! =P keke....
where are we headin...not confirm yet...depends on the votes of places by other ppl....xD

my very first cake tat i baked fully by myself....

wan some ?? =D
wishesfreedom
i' m back ~~~~~~~~ ^^

got miss me a not ?? sure got rite ?!? =P wakakkakaka.... * forgive me...perasan attitude takin over ~ =X

my room key ~~~

well, at least i missed u guys a lot ! =]
especially somebody ~~~~~~ =P tis year's camp was kinda fun....except the part i got stomachache n diarrhea durin camp... T^T
so unlucky.... haih.... missed games for 2 days....

on friday i took off with my bible study leader to Ilham Resort....
durin the journey i was sms-in ~~~~ haha....need some1 to accompany de mah....long journey leh.... reach there then help to arrange tables n chairs for the younger children of the camp then went to check-in...
i was placed in room 6061(3) the third room....
first day activity was jungle trackking and listenin msg at night.... goin up n down was really makin me tired...somemore i ran down the slope till i reached the field.... the first girl who reached ! yay !!!! =P
there's oni a few of us....others was much slower cuz they walked back....n we ran back....xD

it was may chien's birthday too...so we planned a suprise attack for her at night to help her celebrate....ate lotsa cake n junk food tat night....gosh....i'm gaining weight....oh no ~~~ but the cake was yummy....can't help but admit tat...xD on the second day i had some food n half-boiled eggs in the mornin...

BUT

unfortunately, the half-boiled eggs don't even seemed to be half-boiled....it's not cooked at all to be precise....it's raw ! uggh ! horrible taste ~ i had eaten raw eggs with rice b4....it tasted nice...but tis ! ewwwwww ! tasted awful ! i guess their eggs weren't fresh after all.... =S i had stomachache for tat day later...so i went to bed and missed bible study for the topic on accountabilty and games....but never mind....cuz i knew one of the games for tat day have to eat yucky food....
raw eggs, onion, garlic, coke, chili padi...things like tat mixing together....imagine the taste.....

awful ! =S

luckily i dun have to eat those raw eggs again or i will really throw up....
he was so worried when he knew i had stomachache....awwwwwwwww......... caring isn't he ? no worries ! i'm ok now.... ;) love him !
wait ....

tomorrow was worse....food poisonin or wat ? i really dunno....cuz not oni me get.....quite an amount of ppl had stomachache and diarrhea with me.... =S yea....went to the toilet like....5 times ?! *faint
help ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *wail

horrible isn't it ? i missed games again.... i was doubting whether i should tell him bout today's diarrhea a not....cuz i dun wan him to be worried....but still, at last, i chose to tell him....cuz we promised to be truthful to each other.... =]

this is the worship hall....it's quite early now...so oni a few ppl is here...

the hall where we dine....

MDC Camp family night ~ lotsa ppl right ? xD

the family night for tat day was a blast....
i felt much better at night after restin in the afternoon...
i believed tat everyone enjoyed themselves.... =D
it was soooooo much fun ~
we had some singspiration....and some performance by the children... then announced the marks of the groups....there's four groups....our's is armoured for battle....
we were the lowest mark group....oni managed to get 10 .... the first group leadin is 20 marks which is double our marks....the second group is 18 marks while the third is 12 or 14...sumwhere there....we'll have to work real hard to chase back our marks....but paul and jeremy was sayin it's ok...just enjoy the game....position doesn't matter....


the first game ~ The Real Family ~

we started on game 1....entitled The Real Family game....aunty Rachel took out some names from a box to be the players..
.they were required to close their eyes....while other pl conducting the game were placin food on the table behind them....crackers, lollipop ( really big ones ), chili padi, bitter gourd, a bunch of candies, lemon....things like tat...and the were then they were asked to open up their eyes and start eating the food on the table....except the plates, the wrappers of the food, the table and the table cloth... they were basically required to eat up every single food layed before their eyes....

the second game ~ Paul and Timothy !

MGT game ~

the second game was called Paul and Timothy...
given a bible verse each....consisting 120 words....the participants were given a piece of paper to jot down the verse being read by those they called up....so imagine a few voices talkin together nearby u....and u have to get wat was said....it really needs ur concentration and see how well u knew the person's voice... the third game was MDC Got Talent (MGT) .... it consist of four other catogories....Spell Bound, Scholar, Star Performer, Sensodraw and Super Humer....each group were to choose out 5 members frm their team....throw the dice see wat u got n start playing ~ Spell Bound is a game where the person have to spell out the words in a reverse order and the members have to rush to the front....say out the group name n tell out the ans....correct ans will increase mark BUT ! wrong ans will be deducted marks.....so, dun tink it's fun simply tellin out ans....u might get ur team into trouble...

our five MGT members ~ xD

Scholar test u on ur knowledge bout the bible....see how well u noe ur bible....if u r unable to ans....the question will be opened up to the public for some certain time limit.....about Star Performer....u will be given ur character and u were to act it out for ur members to guess....Michael did a great job at tis ! xD
hahahahhahahaha..... Sensodraw....well, as it's name was clearly stated....it's about drawing....NO speaking just like Star Performer....u have to draw on the paper board and it's open to all to guess....so, the faster u guess, the better ! =) Super Hummer were suppose to be someone humming a song and people will have to guess the song name....we had lots of fun and laughter tat very day...finally, it came to the last game ... Sell Us TAFSA... TAFSA stands for teachability, accountability, faithfulness, servanthood and availability.... all being taught n discussed durin bible study.... we were suppose to throw the dice first and u will be given a tool depending on the num u got.... our group got toilet roll....lol....but they prefer to call it tissue....haha....we were given a task to use the toilet roll in our advertisment before proceeding to our song performance....

the pillow advertisment...see Tim sleepin soundly with his snores ~ xD

take away pillow edi still wanna sleep...xD lol ~

in the advertisment....we were suppose to show out the quality of TAFSA....we got servanthood and suppose to use the toilet roll....oopps....forgotten...tissue....to the fullest based on our creativity showin tat particular quality....
we made a short advertisment usin the example of Jesus washing the feet of his disciples in the bible....we used the tissue to clean up other ppl legs ( of course is pretend oni la.... ) others group like uncle Michael Tan's group got a pillow to promote....he started off his speech by sayin something like tat....Timothy was pretendin to sleep on the pillow and i mean SOUND ASLEEP type *fake snores too ~ ...
really cannot wake up geh....even though uncle Michael Tan jumped on the stage....lol ~
it's been ages tat ppl is suffering frm the same old problem iaitu "masalah tak cukup tidur"....lol ! with his tone....omg ....everyone is laughing .... u should be there to see tis scene....oni by lookin at it urself u will feel funny....

then it came to song performance....all the 5 TAFSA words must be in the lyrics of our song....exactly tat word....and we were not suppose to use any instrument for our song....we have to use a few elements to make out the music....water, wood, sand, wind, metal tings like tat.... aunty was so cute....when Daniel was listing out the elements she said fire the next !
lol....tis is not the concept of yin and yang aunty....xD
we used the song of Jason Mraz - I'm Yours as our tone....well, i liked our song a lot... =D we filled in the bottle with beach sand and volleyball court sand....used pail as drums....stuff like tat ...the music turn out to be great.... =] Gideon's group used the tone of Under The Sea...yea...the one in disney xD

Gideon's group performin....with special effect....abel's gurgling water to make under the sea sound...xD

can see Barnabas holdin the "mask" a not ? haha....

but their song was nice too...i like Barnabas group song a lot....it's very catchy and nice....goes well with the song lyrics....i'm not sayin tat i dun like my group 1....just tat i like their rhythm a lot as well.... =P Barnabas put on some kind of mask thing on his face....drew on paper....it's so cute ! very funny expression....then as the song lyrics changes from smile to smiley and a crying face....the paper was being pulled down 1 by one and the expression changes.... creative and nice ~ very interesting ~~~~ xD
then, it was the time for results.....i was expecting us to get last at first....well, something turn out to be unusual....they announced the name of the groups tat got third n fourth place and our name was not called....
wow ~ suprise suprise....
i was taken aback...

really shocked....tat means we are second or first place....but i thought we were getting the second place cuz first seems kinda impossible isn't it....
well, they announced the first place and our group named was called ! wooooooooohooooooooo ~~ yipee ~ =P
we got first ! hurray ~~~~~


then Paul our group leader was called to the front ....infront of him was 4 prizes....big n small....we dunno wat's in....the small or the big prize is more valuable ? no one noes....except those hu prepared the gifts.... so Paul was asked to decide which gift he wants for us n which to give to other groups....lol ~ a difficult situation isn't it.... he gave off the biger gift to other groups and we took a smaller one....xD haha....uncle Thomas was sayin us....really humble now....xD after tat we had prayer and went out the hall for some fruits....duku langsat, rambutan, mangoesteen....yummy ! they were so sweet.... =P a gud news for us....the schedule changed...tomorrow we will start on the msg at 11 so after breakfast is our free time...we were allowed to enjoy ourselves at the beach for a longer time....xD on tat night many of us slept quite late....all ran to another person's room to chit chat....and i tink every nite i had supper....goodness.....now back edi dunno how to diet down back....T^T i collected some shells and brought it home....Barnabas found a dead crab....well....it oni left back some portion....one hand left....some legs left and some others gone....=X

the beach...

yea....it's not clean.... =/

i dried it off under the sun when i reached home....the shell of the crab was actually greenish...mana tau after i dried it under the sun it changed into orange-reddish colour....LOL ! cooked crab !! O.o ! wan some ?? xD but after it was dried it was so fragile....so easily broken T^T
i put in the container n other shells crushed some parts of the shell....sob...sob....i haven't even take a pic of it's original form ! how can the shells do this to me..... =(

my cooked n spoiled crab...so cham....

last day at P.D...enjoyin at the beach....

i even caught back 2 hermit crabs ! alive ones ~~~~
but they die on the way back la....sorry ~ =X

yesterday i went to sze's house to bake again....three cakes in a shot yesterday....xD
haha...so fun ~ =P
i did a cake all by myself leh.... =] so happy....xD
when we were outside the shop wan to go in buy ingredients....we saw 2 weirdos....a female adult and a teenage boy....the woman keep on ask the guy to take pics of the shop....they summore took our pic as we enter the shop....stupid....violating our privacy ! give back our pics.... >=(

i have no idea those pics are for wat but they have been taking quite an amount....when we were about to leave...we even heard the shop owner say wan call police because they also notice those 2 fella was outside takin pics for quite some time edi....i heard tat they're even finding inspector's num ! wow ~ beat tat .... xD guess this is pretty serious huh ? =X

i hope tis long blog will satisfy my readers tats waiting...haha... (* a note to jie mei : dun fall asleep while readin tis ah ! )
wishesfreedom
我们和好了哦 ~ 我和我滴姐妹 ~
终于没有在冷战下去了。。。松了一口气 ~ 又少了一样东西烦恼了。。。。 =)
冷战完后我们还真是讲了很多话阿。。。。
谢谢你啦姐妹 ~ 我真的给你弄破产了啦 ~ 哈哈哈。。。。惨咧。。。以后不要乱
冷战了。。。。你看!战争后的后果多严重阿。。。。XD

这个星期五要去 P.D 了哦。。。。haih。。。又没得上网了啦。。。。我会超想念
你们滴 !=(
回来时候应该有一大堆东西写了~ XD 可可。。。。星期一就会回来的咯 ~~
要想我啊 ! =P

=) 好想念你哦!虽然今天才刚看见你 。。。。xD *muacks ! 哈哈。。。。刚才
有人不爽错人了哦。。。。竟然在不爽自己。。。。下次不要乱猜了哦。。。要信
我多点。。。知道吗?? =P 这次就原谅你啦。。。毕竟你也是因为在乎才胡思乱
想的。。。。XD
突然间想起星期一的事了。。。。又再对自己傻笑。。。。记得我们在对着墙壁的
那些画说了什么吗 ? 想起又会在那边微笑。。。虽然我们好像是在讲废话啦。。。
可是那时开心就好咯 ~ 对不对?? =P

好啦,想了很久都想不到要写什么了啦。。。。都是写短一点。。。。等下怕你们
读了会睡着。。。尤其是我的姐妹阿。。。。很容易被我的 blog 催眠 ~ wakakakkaka.....xD
wishesfreedom
我不知道我们到底怎么了。。。我们是在斗气吗 ?
我从来没有嫌你烦还是什么的。。。你也有在我的生活里扮演过重要的角色。。。

最近你没来找我。。。我以为你还在生气。。。所以更加不敢去打扰你了。。。
就因为我有了一个男朋友。。。你就要我失去友情吗?
如果那是你想要的。。。我会尊重你。。。以后都不跟你说话,免得你不开心。。。

我并没有生气你还是什么的。。。我只是想要你知道。。。如果你还想跟我当朋友
的话。。。我随时欢迎你。。。我会等你这个姐妹。。。不过如果你不想的话,我
也会成全你的。。。
wishesfreedom

i left my drawing paper with him after Pn.Goh's class...so today went and claim back in the morning....
missed him sooooooooo much ! =P keke...
to see him faster, i fasten my pace....aunty gave me money to help her buy bread....and i told aunty tat i m gonna take things first before comin back....still i cant stay too long...have to be back fast....=/

i saw him....and smile spread across my face automatically.... =D
just glad to see him around....
he's holding my drawing paper....and below it...he's hiding a drawing he taken to laminate...a very cute picture...our story...wakakakaka....bear with ketchup ? xD
his caring attitude....
awwwwwww.........soooooooooooo sweet ~~~~~~~~~~ isn't he adorable ??? *muacks !
when i took it...i have the urge to plant a kiss on his cheeks...as a sign of thankfulness...but of course, i resisted la...we're in the public with adults watching....better not simply do....later somebody found out we'll be dead meat....
i love it very much....simple things like tis can make me happy....at least, he took the effort to make it for me... i guess tis is to comfort me when i m feeling down....thank u very much ! =)

so whenever i tink bout my family issues n stuff...i can take out the picture....and ponder on wat happen....i guess tat would help in lifting a smile....because the words written on will comfort me....i noe he's by my side.... =]

isn't it nice ?? adorable hor ?? =D


a clearer version ~ our love story ?? xD

member tis ? xD haha....i took a pic of it b4 throwing.... =P

wishesfreedom

thank u for stayin by my side....always encouraging me and giving me the strength to move on....
helpin me to face the circumstances and hardships that befalls me...
wat u wrote to me really helped me a lot....felt much better ....much contented because i have someone that really cared...
i felt so lucky to have u with me...i really thank God for that....
as i was readin wat u wrote me yesterday i was crying again...eyes in tears...
not because of i am sad over the issue....it's pure happiness tear....a tear that fell because of ur concern...

i felt proud to have u...虽然有时看了你写了什么会觉得你有点傻。。。( 不是笨哦!)
可是,我就是喜欢这样的你。。。哈哈。。。可能是傻得可爱吧~ ^^
ur image in my heart will always be the best....so, no worries ~ =D
ur words did touched my heart and brought me smiles.... contented and joyous smiles... =)
and i m grateful of that...
i will keep my promises...i am serious bout tis...and i will go steady ! ;)
*hugs and kisses ~ xoxo !
love ya always.... =P


wishesfreedom
suddenly, i was reminiscing my past...
talking about my past .... how much do u noe about me ?
how well do u noe me ?
who is the Sin Yee u r talking to all these while ? is she from the past a cheerful person ?
is she just wearing a smile on her face all these while but deep down she's actually breaking down ?

do i have a happy n memorable childhood ?
well, actually...no, i don't really have one...
i cant really member much things tat are happy when i m young....cuz not much happy things happened i suppose ?
the things i member so clearly was the situation where i saw both of my parents yelling at each other in the room while i was peeking in from the door outside....i was a kid tat time....barely seven....maybe six or five...somewhere around tat age....

the next minute, i saw my mum in tears....a face full of sorrow and pain...an expression tat i will never forget...crying at the stairways....tears flowing down from her eyes....
he left...
he just left....walked out of the house...and never came back...he didn't even take the effort to look back....
he didn't turn to see me or mum...
leaving me and mum behind....
i am his child ! his one and only child ! don't he love me ???
how can he be so cruel to us ? how can he be so irresponsible and just left both of us like tat ?

from tat moment onwards, i decided....i hate him...for taking the decision to leave us and to find that woman...
wat's so gud with tat bitch ?! why must she ruin my family ?!?! can't she find a better one ?? wat's wrong with her desperate case ??
i was fuming in anger deep down inside....hatred took over....
i still remember clearly the words tat my mum spoke....
she asked me in mandarin , " Sin Yee, mummy and daddy is going to separate already...u want to follow daddy or mummy ? "
a question that hold me back....

separate ?? wat do u mean by separate ?? i asked myself....a kid that knows nothing bout the complicated relationships adults having....it really makes me ponder...
moments later, i realized...he's not coming back....not anymore....
everytime i flashback n thought bout tis....i will cry....and i m doing so as i m writing tis blog....
family's love and concern is wat i have craved for all these while....
there's this time i became mischievous...i forgotten wat i did that made my mum freaking mad...my mum fetch me to the playground nearby that woman's house....asked me to go and find tat....of course i m reluctant to do so....i begged over and over again....crying all my heart out...
finally, she stopped askin me to get down....we cried together that very night....
from tat night onwards, i m very afraid tat mum would ask me to leave her again....i m afraid tat she will forsake me...and i will be totally lost....no more family's love....

because of this separation....i have lost it...lost the love of family i tried to hold on all these while...
dad left for another woman....mum can't be by my side because she have to support the whole family by herself now...no more depending on him...she went outstation....
work very hard...just to support tis family....but....nothing's goin easy on her...circumstances befall her...
wat kind of situation can make things worse ?
well, sad to say.... A LOT MORE can.... =(
inconsiderate family members....my grandparents they all...
for ur info, my grandparents is those type tat care son more than daughter one....
so, when anything happened to their beloved son, which happens to be my uncle....
they will come lookin after my mum to ask for help...

wat kind of help....? MONEY....always the same old thing....money, money, money...tats all they freakin cared !
wat ? my uncle is their son then my mum is not their daughter ?! why must be so pilih kasih....
don't they noe tat it's so unfair to my mum....do they even realize how tired she is....? how hard she worked just to cope up with their wishes ?
my uncle's factory had some financial problem....they seeked my mum's help....
my second uncle gamble n lost a great amount of money....they asked my mum to help him pay off the debts....
my grandfather was admitted to the hospital...he's needin money for surgery...and all of them backed off...leavin my mum to pay off the bill....
and these are oni SOME of the situations .... there's more....it's just tat i dun wanna list it out....=/

they called again for money from my mum....why ? why ? why they just cant stop tis ?? has tis became sum kind of routine or customary to them ??
i felt so heartbroken every single time i thought about it....
my mum didn't know that all these while i knew all these....because she never told me....she's tryin to bear it off herself....but i manage to find out frm auntynanny...
so i had tis feelin of heart gettin pierce through whenever my mum act fine infront of me when she's not....i knew she's not....she's just tryin to act strong infront of me...
she cried on the phone infront of aunty before....when i found out this....i can really feel tat my heart bleeds....sumtimes....i just ..... hate them ?
i have no idea...i m so sick of it...so tired of all this....it's like a living nightmare ! haunting me....

i felt so much better after spillin out all my feelings....rather than keepin it all to myself....and starts spilling into tears during the night....
i dunno....i just dunno....
i dunno whether can i really hate them....all of them....
sometimes i will say tat i hate them...but after a while....i will start doubting myself....n slowly i will try to forgive them....but they are repeating it again n again....can't they just stop it ? i beg u all....please ?? =/
my mum asked me before....do i hate him for leaving us behind....i said yes at the beginning but not tat much later...but do i really meant wat i said ? i m not sure....i m just ....just....so confuse.... *sigh
how can i let all this go ?? can i just forget about them ?? sometimes, i m just so mad at them fir their actions and behaviour.....but sometimes i can't help but to forgive them because they were part of my family....

every single time i saw him again i will cry...no doubt about it....
it has been six years....and there he goes....suddenly pop out infront of me again.....
sayin tat all these while he missed me and stuff...
but a question came to me....if he really does missed me these much ....why didn't he came to find me earlier....why out of sudden now ? why after six long years....my question remained unanswered....
i really doubt it....does he really care about his child ? does he really misses me ?
i just don't know...............so uncertain........so insecure.........