Sweetest Romance ♥

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2010-12-27T19:01:00.000-08:00

seriously, i felt horrid.

did i just abandoned my blog for months ? *guilty

i think all my readers have left me then :X

looi has been complaining to me for not updating.

but i really don't feel like blogging ever since i had been admitted into hospital.

now, let me warn u. this post is gonna be a very long post.

so, open ur eyes wide and read on if u wanna noe what happened to me.

16th Dec 2010.

currently, disaster befall me. yea, i meant DISASTER.

mummy gave me a call. i am going to move to Kajang PERMANENTLY. i felt lost. confused.

all my plans just shattered.

it's like WTF ?! all my friends, close ones are all here. that includes my boyfriend.

am i not going to get to see them like ever again ?

i cried. tears just came rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably.

yes, i finally get to leave my babysitter's place. the ONLY thing to be glad about.

but this also meant leaving my friends. ouch, that hurts me. A LOT.

like i m gonna move to a stranger's place ? a brand new environment ? would i adapt well ?

questions blast into my mind buzzing around me.

my family went into debt. let's say it's quite a big amount one.

mum can't find the money to pay back cuz previously she lost her job.

then now, my grandpa is admitted into hospital. mummy has to pay for the medical fees. not to mention it's a private hospital. a greater amount that would be burden on now. i felt to f*cked up !

seriously felt like banging the wall or just hang up. why ?! why everyone would just burden us like that ?!

what the hell we did to u ?!

i dunno how to drive. dunno their roads there. oh my.

what about college ?

probably will heed my cousin's advice and stay in the hostel.

i suddenly felt the burdens on my shoulder gain. i felt..i dunno. grown up ?

now that i have to really be self-disciplined. i must learn to save money. learn to organize time.

DISCIPLINE is the word.

maybe work during weekends to gain extra income. wow. just by plain thinking bout it. i felt dizzy.

do i even have time for myself then ? :S i wonder.

will let u guys noe when i really decided what to do.

14th Dec 2010.

Genting trip with sweetheart.

i guess, so far this was the only joyous event for me this month :S

after my last paper on the 13th Dec, my arts, i went to dye my hair for the next day trip.

i have no idea why my hair colour turn out brighter above and dull below.

but now, mystery solved. it's just a misunderstand. i redye some of my hair to make it more balance.

i was excited. and really happy. this was my first trip with him to genting. :D

lol. we even saw our school teacher.

took bus from 1U then took skyway up.

that day was really misty and yeap, freezing cold. we can turn into popsicle.

the mist around was thick. really can't see a thing while u're in the cable car. look around and i felt as if i was in the middle of clouds. lol.
going back with it was a little scary. cuz it stopped and hang in the middle of the air twice ! :O
i dun wanna be like the movie "Frozen". :S
scary. luckily we still manage to get down safely. :)

i remembered that the last time i went wasn't this cold. it's warm. really, u can even wear spaghetti strap and feel warm.

BUT NOT THIS TIME.

everytime the wind blew, i felt like dying. it's like it can pass through ur jeans. it gives me goosebumps.

felt so gratefull that dear pass me his jacket but at the same time guilty cuz he have to suffer the coldness. :(

food there was nonetheless expensive.

so i recommend u guys to eat at old town next time. at least they just made the price a little higher than the normal price.

decorations there were bringing out "go green" theme. environment friendly.

using the 3R. they used plastic creatively. making into dears, christmas trees and stuff.

stunningly beautiful. :)

we "threw money into the ocean" by playing their games there. lol. just for the sake of fun and experience.

we played most of the things that we wanted, which i take it as a good sign :)

now i learnt that my new fav drink would be honey lemon but hot ones. delicious :P

i even had a special encounter. while we're walking around the parks. there's this family of tourist that required a picture with me. LOL.

they thought i weren't a Malaysian. just because i dyed my hair and had some make up. lol. i can go around to cheat ppl now. ;)

dear checking ticket. :O

our bus to destination :)

crowded with ppl waitin bus.

says "Go Genting !"

hold me like this, forver. :)

my sweetheart.

:)

this is known as cable car ? or skyway. whichever ~

smile and look here.

my turn. cheese ! :D

we're high up away from land. :O

turning foggy. can't see a thing. let's sing ! " i believe i can fly...i believe i can touch the sky..."

suddenly it emerges out.

everything seems whitish around me.

act like him ! :P

driving a "car". still foggy.

whoops. we're left behind. :X

him driving :D

drive through fast ! water splashing.

camwhore. :)

us :D

parrot's lane. scary with them walking around FREELY.

so evil.

attack !

my turn ! choke u to death !

dinosaur attack.

when it's misty like this, they do seemed real though :X

hanging bridge.

another attacking dinosaur.

poser :P

why must i look so horrid... :(

nostalgic moments.

wrong direction la darling.

childhood memories.

swing ~

hair seemed damp.

Go-Kart.

lotsa ppl here.

me n dear dear.

pirate ship.

dear smiling :P

narcissism

too dark here :X

decos.

ought to be environmental friendly.

bun up hair.

awww. the place me, mich cui used to go....closed.

pic session in garden

peace.

greenish environment is what we want for our next generation rite ? stop the pollution ! :)

i wasn't ready :X

i love him :)

wholeheartedly.

camouflaging.

failed badly, spotted by han.

fishes :)

it's so windy.

why this face ? :O

train tour.

i will certainly miss that day :)

telephone booth ! i thought it's just for display :X

the fact is, it's usable !

i have no idea that ppl can go in and eat... till this year :S

these are changed from real money... money no more now :O

lol ! look at the blur head :P

look up :D

dinner time. :) hot honey lemon is delicious ;)

obvious enough, we're at old town.

darling eating nasi lemak :)

time to sit back, relax and enjoy :D

our tickets :)

25th Nov 2010.

it's history paper but yeap, it's my birthday too ! :)

i can't believe it. we still have lotsa papers to go but we still went out to celebrate for a little while.

i have to say. i m really grateful towards my friends.

a big thank u : chun han, sze yan, hsuet yee, pei fern, audrey and bok for being there for me.

love the cards and the gifts and surprises :)

i was really shocked when han wrapped up himself in wrapping papers. i was really joking with him previously. xD

didn't knew he took it seriously.

we went to pizza and ate like hungry ghost. all starving xD

mummy sent me a Dior perfume, two necklaces and a card. yes!adding another perfume into my perfume collection :)

though two of the christmas cards went missing :S

warning ! more weird expressions will be found below :P

cui still eating !

very difficult to get a shot of pei fern.

what's looi laughing about ?

covers. *hide !

lol. suddenly angry face. xD

hahahaha...cute betul la ! xD

pizza hut ~ :D

why that face ? D:

take again ! peace :D

bestie :)

u ppl better stop hiding ur face ! :\

lol. my present. believe it or not. xD

i can't believe he really did this.

wishes.

peace.

open present :D

and found him :P

my card !

yums.

my birthday celebration :)

cut the cake :)

looi's gonna divide for us :P

han looks like a waiter now. :P

lotsa laughter going on.

my cake :)

the ballerina show.

magic ! xD

now sze's turn to tie a bow on her head. xD

what a mess we created. :X

what's so funny ? it's the topic of bee hoon n kuey teow that drove us crazy. xD

group pic time :)

present from pf n sze.

b'day card from mummy.

necklace mummy bought :)

12th Nov 2010.

it's graduation !

i really have no idea why that day i took very few pics with friends :S

sad case rite.

cuz this year photo session was very short :(

sze baked us cake :) and we all grab for food ~

miss tang gave us free kit kat asking us to not stress out ourselves and take a break. but i doubt that anyone would take a break. :|

she even gave back us our journal. i feel so funny. lol. looking back at it gives back me awesome memories. things that i don't even member happened.

i felt kinds childish too. for what i wrote. i really doubt that i would write something like that once.

i doodled a lot in that journal. cartoonish pic around. xD even mandy finds it cute and took picture. LOL.

what can i say ? i will really miss all of you :)

loo loo so lazy ! xD

last time walkin out from this class. :X

from first row (from left) : me, my "sis", my "mum".
second row : my "uncles".
lol. learnt this from ping. xD

we're all crazy. but we loved each other. :)

sze baked us some cake :)

our hall arrangement.

30th Oct 2010.

went to Art Expo M'sia 2010 with han, his dad and his father.

i found the second version of mona lisa there named MOANA LISA. lol.

paintings that looked awesome to the max. but i only took very little pic with my cacated phone cam.

pics will do the talking for me :)

15th Oct 2010.

suspected denggi. i was having fever. it's gone n back again. i saw tiny red dots on my legs.

and not long after that i was hospitalized for a week in Tawakal Hospital :(

i was surprised that my doc was a chinese converted into malay. cuz when the nurse told me his name was Dr. Noor Hisham or something i went blank. isn't he a CHINESE. lol.

first few days was horrible. i lost weight and had no appetite. the food just ewww. no matter how tasty it might be.

freinds and relatives visited me. i felt glad and grateful. thank u to those who came to see me.

had lotsa fruits during that weel. i was put on drips. very troublesome. especially when i have to keep going toilet. argh. worse, they put on my right hand. now my left hand have to do all the work.

but once my right hand became swollen. my left hand was being put on drips. aiks ! poke both hands :'(
till now i still can see those marks. everyday my blood was taken for blood test. if i was not mistaken my hand edi kena cucuk 13 times by the nurse. ouch ! blue black here n there.

my first jab. :(

this thing that i have to drag along with me wherever i go is troublesome to the max :S

i moved around and guess what ? the blood of mine came out. and yikes ! this freaks the hell out of me.
really scared that would kena marah from the nurse of something cuz my blood even kena the bed. have to press bell to call her but was afraid. so, i walked out to see her instead. and when she sees me, oh well, u can imagine her expression. terrified ! cuz quite a lot of blood came out :S

hurray, the blood went back in my blood vessel. a good sign i presume. i can feel the water pushing it back in. xD

oh, i even have menu for food! :O

i find these cute :D

his boaster became mine now ! :P

using closet to become a table for laptop. LOL. creative or what ? xD

the marks became clearer.

this is what happen to my left hand after the right hand bengkak ! ouch. both hands kena :S

oh, i have an ID number ! :O

card from friends :)

10th Sept 2010.

my trip with han to sunway lagoon :)

yipee. loves it. that day was awesome. wasn't too sunny. a bit cloudy. but not much of raining. just a little drizzle.

but i forgot to apply sunblock and got a little sunburn.
but overall, it's nice :)

ready to get goin :)

haha. look at him :P

filled with ppl :)

hell expensive food n drinks. :S

our locker :)

me in his clothes ! :P

ignore my fish face :S

they took a pic of us :D

road directories.

jump in ! :P

we didn't get to play this though. :|

i remember this ! it's a leopard cat :)

haha. emo like the pic pulak. xD

they're so cute !

they stayed in this position for quite some time.

awww. a family ? :)

this one is digging n hiding.

spotted ! :P

what are they again ? chipmunks or squirrels. i think squirrels.

freaking long black tailed squirrel.

seriously, i didn't even notice there's a crocodile there at first.

the second croc. hiding ?

and now i spotted the third one. but all of them were quite small in size actually.

those gates behind really reminds me of Jurassic Park. we should act like we're freaked out too :D

majestic huh ?

poser again :P

this one is creepy. it just stares like that for a very very long time. and i meant VERY.

this fella behind me is staring at the eagle as it stares back. lol. i wonder is it actually a machine.

i think this butterfly was injured. it didn't fly. ppl even put on their hands and video cam it.

is it dead or alive ? :S

awww. swan ! :)

peacock ! :D

time for food :)

i think this would be my first time seeing a tapir in real life :O

when i saw these leopard....

i saw this kid with his leopard plushie ! xD

lol ! what's this ? the sceen from the movie of Tarzan ? xD

such an emo poser. xD freaking long hands. :O

final pic before my phone ran out of battery that day. regretted for not charging my phone :(

Karina's Surprise Party.

2010-09-21T08:14:00.000-07:00

Surprise !! surprise !!
it's a specially planned Karina's party.
shhhhh...lets keep it a secret ;)
oh well, sad that cui cant join us though.
it's just a few of us....quietly behind all these.

organizer : Mandy.
target : Karina
participant : me, looi, audrey n din :)

ACTION !!

went ahead to mandy's house earlier to prepare stuff like banners.
mandy painted some wordings earlier. we just hang them around. decorating. n yeap, blew balloons for the game later.
each of us were suppose to make a video for karina. n i was tricked into giving such a LONG SPEECH. xD

tying balloons.

preparing.

banners to be.

it's sweet.

we love you :)

blowing balloons.

looi blow !! jia you !! xD

seemed difficult to drey... xD

photo taking session. xD

mandy's gift.

n yea, we wrote letters. long ones again.
and we held these letters with heart shaped clips ( which are really adorable ) on ribbon.
we had baskin robbins ice-cream cake. DELI-CIOUS ~
my first time having their cake. it's kinda small in size for such a expensive price though. :O
then yeap, we held our gifts n HIDE !!
Karina was so surprised by all these. Didn't expect a single thing like this. xD
we're suppose to shout "surprise" n come out of our hiding place upon hearing our signal but....
drey n looi still continued hiding. which made things funny !
mandy just hit the mirror sliding door hard asking them to come out n leaving A PALM MARK there. totally LOL.
xD
i made her a gift n card. which is kinda last minute cuz i was informed quite late. :X
ordered pizza. ate till we're freaking full n terus play game.
lol. luckily didn't get appendix.
we tied balloons using ribbon around our legs. n yeap. attack each other's balloon.
i m the final survivor. :D
but ouch, i was chased like mad.
have to run to survive from din n LOOI.
we took pics n then played truth or dare.
here's the killing part. u must be there to feel the "funny-ness."

letters for eu !! oops. i saw mine :P

Baskin Robbins Cake.

delicious ice-cream cake ! :D

hand made gift.

hope u dun mind :X

view of banner taken from inside the house.

how's my idea ? :D

isn't it amazingly brilliant ? :)

touched ? :P

whoops. it turned away.

there you are.

ta dah !

1300882525. here comes ---- pizza hut delivery ;)

time to check out the presents. xD

so happy looking.

we shall all MAKAN :D
oops. mandy nearly forgotten about her sis portion.

there's din's hand. audrey's hair covered face n looi checking out food. xD

from finger-licking good to knife-licking good ? xD

quite true huh ? xD

it's BR ! ♥

Games Time !

balloon tying session.

there's drey :)

watch out those grass. they burst balloon too !!

love this pic. mandy... send me !!

mandy was suppose to go down n switch off her aunt's tv while saying " watch till very fun hor ?"
lol. if really said that. i think she cant survive in that house anymore. xD
din was the worse. he was suppose to go down to mandy's dad telling him :
(first choice) : "Yo uncle ! i like ur style !"
wakakakakakkaka...he practiced infront of us. damn hilarious. but i prefer the second choice version. sadly, he picked the first one instead but still....F*cking FUNNY !
(second choice) : *whistle "Uncle, u think i very cute ah ?" *put peace sign .
lol. can u imagine Din doin that ?? i laughed my heart out because of what he did.
we played Tumblin' Monkeys game too. and the one who lost were AUDREY n DIN !! of course them. xD
punishment time !! :P
audrey's hair was styled by us. horribly. xD

my ribbon. after the ballon burst.

don't lah hide.

everyone resting after game.

time to cam whore.

me n looi.

me n mandy.

hahahhaha....all their expressions super cute !

me n karina. *argh ! the flash.

darn it. my smile looked kaku edi. :\

me n karina :)

look at looi. xD

see ! she puts the love clip ! xD

Din trying to squeeze out the air from the balloon.

look at audrey ! xD

Din hair styling Drey.

Let's play with drey's hair. :P

this is audrey.

she's hiding.

caught ya ! :P she's sooo gonna kill me :S

boo !

such a nice hair style rite ? :P

it made us all laughing.

looi participate in the styling session too ! xD

cheating ! she took away her "punishment" :O

oops. flash.

before we leave.

Drey....just cooperate with us !!

looi's bro drove us home later from max value. bought some japanese food ! me gonna cook !! ok la....maybe not counted i cook, but at least is counted i prepare. xD
Japanese Curry here i come ! :D

Bok's Birthday

2010-09-21T05:17:00.000-07:00

oops. guessed i delayed "A LITTLE". not my fault. it was suppose to be up earlier but....internet line prob.
and the sunway post. i decided to post it after reformating my comp. so....it will be kinda SLOW.
just be patient ;)
ok, let's get started. :)
me n han was given the task to get a cake. thank god the cake shop was still open that day.
we got a blueberry cake from De Pastry Chef.
i think it's kinda nice...just...i dun really like the white choc. :X
supposingly dine in ikea for buffet but sudden change of plan as mandy had already booked places for us in the Garden.
so we went there for dinner instead. me n han had taken dinner earlier with his family so we just had some drinks n yeap, became DBKL !! sapu semua food that was left back by pf. xD cuz she cant finish them.
oh well, a lot of them had left overs. e.g : mandy !! looi !! *caught ya !
they were kinda attracted with the pianist there. a guy playing piano nearby.
and there we go...started all the teasing !
but i think han did embarrassed pf when he says her name n ask her stop day dreaming because of guys. xD
LOL.
we really laughed like mad. i tink we even looked too much that he noticed n looked back ?
PERHAPS.
later on, we went form curve to one u to watch grown ups.
gosh. full parking. so at last we just parked behind sze's car...luckily no one took away the tyre. xD
Grown Ups was actually a really nice movie. we laughed like from the starting to the ending.
HILARIOUS.
i guess the only embarrassing thing that happened was....there was a man that looked at us when we cam whored in front of the xixili shop. well, according to looi, he's staring at me. which now seems creepy.
cuz when we're going to car park, we saw him again. n yeap. Looi n Mandy shouted from the other side towards me saying " Sin Yee ! ur best friend " lol.
of course, i replied them which made things more embarrassing ?
the best thing u can do now is...act like u guys dunno each other. So,
" Who are You ?? "
this is my reply :D smart leh ! *cheh, jus kidding ;)
late night, we went to Old Town Cafe nearby for furthur celebration.
surprisingly i got asked to try on new beer. LOL. of course, i rejected.
ate some snacks and had some drinks. chit chatted. cam whored. and of course. cutting the cake !
appearantly, we didn't sing though. just gave her our wishes.
the pics shall do the explaination :)

waiting for the time to pass faster.

:)

our task. :X

arrived. at the garden. oh ya, before this...we took the LONG CUT to Ikea. super tiring especially when i have to run on heels too. thats
eal killing !! :S i guess this would be the best gift i gave her. i'm running like an athlete ! *over spoken

why's mandy hiding ?? :O

bok's reading the menu :)

let's see what's available :)

Desserts ! :O

getting our orders.

stop hiding from the camera !! :S

me n bokie ~ :P

a clearer pic of us :)

why's everyone hiding ? i'm heart broken :'(

ok, this looked ghastly... :S

a pic of looi :)

me n darling :)

i thought i required a smile ?? :O

notice !! there's the pianist ! :P

why la emo ? xD

bok's lemon tea. or was it ?? :X

it doesn't seemed like in this pic
.
my apple juice :) yummy.

pei fern :)

cam whore :X

rejoice :)

caught ya in surprise ! but still, covering mouth ! xD

see how food wasting is mandy. :O

at One Utama after movie. caught by sze.

here comes the birthday cake. :)

De Pastry Chef.

caught bok in candid ! :)

is sze trying to tie herself in ribbon form ? xD

i love taking all forms of candid shots :P

we're so kind that we waited for looi to order cuz she went back home earlier on.

says LOL.

me n the b'day girl :)

she hid herself successfully.

dear n me :)

me n the birthday girl :)

wahahhaha. just look at her :P

u can't hide from the almighty ME. :P *jk

contrastic looi vs pf.

ta da !

finally she can stop hiding n give me a smile. :)

cake cutting time ! :D

sleepy head dear. i guess he'll kill me after seeing this.

ok, what's with that look ?
eating time.

hor hor ! so late sms siapa ah....

looi trying to kick out the butter.

end result of hers. YUCKS :S

my peanut butter bread :) i m starting to like them now.

happy birthday to u !

ngam ngam take till lighted candle :D

poor camera woman looi took till me.

cut cake !! cut cake !! *why m i so hyped up ? :|

me n buddy sze :)

say cheese.

group pic. :)

smile :)

final pic. let's all act on phone ! *actually bok's really on one ! xD

The Last Performance.

2010-09-09T08:04:00.000-07:00

SORRY :|
ok, i've admitted i'm wrong. sorry blog :( *pulls ears while sobbing
Miss Khor's retirement is like what ? a week passed by already n now only i update my blog with it. :S
i know, i know, i'm a slowpoke ~
let sze yan ffk that day. :\
i've deleted all pics in my com..so i just randomly saved down some from my facebook n put it here.
have a look there would be better ;)
we're all dressed up in traditional clothes. sang 4 songs. and what i can conclude was, we did a great job !
it's our last performance for this year. the last year. love u guys.
i was a nyonya that day. dressed up in a kebaya....too much influence from the drama little nyonya ? xD
u bet ! :P
i shall just let the pics do the talking then :D *but i will still pipe in here n then :P

the on going process. below would be the result :)

hairstyle of the day. nice ?
the plaits are done by Divi :)
A GREAT BIG THANK YOU :D
got this idea from internet. :)

the loud speaker of class, may i introduce, Loo Jing Ying a.k.a Lulu ~ :P
don't misunderstand, we all loved her.
she's a... what we chinese called, "Happy Fruit" :)

class scorpion !! :P Jia Sern ~

let me introduce u another gentlement, Mr. Chen Zi Qian.
man, my class is totally filled with smart peoples.

this is me, and yea. flirtatious suren. * just joking :P

taken by emily. but....can't see her already...xD
let's retake.

here we are, that's better :)

here's a pic of me n min hua :)

nevertheless, with the cute and hyper zi ying.

a pic of me & pui li.
she wore a long red cheong sam.
so new year feel :D

this is me and Xin Yan in a very pretty cheong sam. :)

me and the hair stylist of the day. Thanks a lot Div ! :D

i can't help but start to laugh when i saw this.
i had totally no idea he did that face when this pic was taken.
how cute can Sarnjev be ? u guess. :P
anyway, TAKE AGAIN !!

smile !! we did it ~ :P

me and the girls !
there's siang rui on the left, lay yen behind me and poh ting on the right.
obviously, i'm the front one :)
yeap, all of em' exclude me are smarties ;)

random pic before performance. taken by LK. :)

i ♥ them :D
it's Lulu, me n Yen Ping, the smartest student in my class.
she's plain brilliant and definitely easy going.

who are we ? POSERS :P

i don't know why, but i like this shot a lot !! :)

if i'm a nyonya, is that my baba ?
SHAHRUL ?! NOOOOOOOOOOOO !!!!

group pic snap shots. :)

here we are again, all showing our bright white pearly teeth. :D
promoting Darlie toothpaste ? xD

a full pic of myself. ok, nearly full. xD
mummy says she likes this ♥ :D

PERFORMANCE TIME !! :)

great, this is the sad part, we have to stand in the hot sun.
and sing for A VERY VERY LONG TIME.
honestly, that can murder us alive.
we sang Auld Lang Syne for like more than 10 times under this condition, NON STOP, waving our....custom made manila card GIANT hands.
erm, sudden things that somehow shocked me was,
MIN HUA CRIED when she was conducting the performance ! :\
like, out of the blue....that's scary, we're all wondering what's wrong.
but she calmed down later. too overwhelmed by Miss Khor's departure.

group pics always comes in the last :)

what we humans calls ---- a happy ending.

p.s : next up, bok's b'day n yeap, sunway trip ;)

National Day's Arrival.

2010-08-30T07:23:00.000-07:00

oh well, i finally found a reason to come back to my blog after deserting it for...
i think near a month ??
Happy National Day bloggie ! :P
i left my blog dead cuz i was really lazy and i just couldn't bear to drag myself to write something :X fogive me ? *puppy eyes.
tomorrow's gonna be M'sia 53rd National Day Celebration. at least we got a new holiday on 16 Sept ! :P
let's pray that our country ppl can stay united even though we're from different races.
NO RACISM. *ahem like u noe, some issue happened lately.
i don't wanna turn out to be minority in this country and be dominated by the majority who seems to be becoming all the foreigners.
just walk on the street and look around i think there would be a whole lot of ppl that wouldn't be a citizen isn't it ?

One M'sia Concept.

Unity is strength.

tomorrow's 31st !! isn't it great ? it means another holiday ! hurray. how i love holidays !
i really agree on the fact that my teacher once told me that M'sia has the most holidays among all the countries in the world.
but everyone's away :(
can't even get out of the house then :'( *sob
how miserable. han went to penang and couldn't accompany me. cui most probably won't come cuz her dad's not working i guess...
even sze went s'pore !
wanted to go swimming at first but no one can bring.
jie and gor going out tomorrow so i cant go their place either....anyone have any idea what should i do tomorrow ?
oh ya, i just got myself a bikini. love it ! ;)
i even planned to go sunway lagoon this coming holiday. haven't went there since ages.
let's just hope i don't turn from snow white to charcoal princess.
i just hate getting dark. :\
oh ya, the great news for me today is i finally get an A for my add maths ! FINALLY. i must really treat myself with something good to make up my effort :P
ice-cream ! here i come !! :D
ok la, i knew it was just section B question, but hey, i thought it really killed me that i might come back failing.
who knows, i got an A. don't care whether it's a strong A or not, it's still an A to me. hell ya, i'm darn happy. *grins :D

lagoon theme park map.

i wanna join !!

superb.

me wanna play !! D:

everything just looked great. hopefully that day turns out splendidly.

A for Add Maths ! xD

Ice-cream for treat. :D

previously went bazaar, well, they have amazing food :) and thinking of it and seeing pictures of food now makes me really hungry....
i wanna go subway eat burger !! and dragon-i for their la mian...and definitely, their steamed meat dumpling !!
*i'm practically drooling now....my stomach is growling in hunger.
that's not the end of it,
i have a whole list of movies i wanna watch and here are my top 3 wanted movies !

Bazaar's delicacy.

colourful drinks everywhere.

kuih muih. :)

i wanna eat satay now. :(

all kinds of puffs. :D

i wanna go subway eat.... :'(

looking at this made me darn hungry.

yummy yummy.

La Mian.

movie fever ! :)

Step Up 3 :D

awesome dance steps.

Resident Evil : Afterlife.

Love Resident Evil, this must be amazing.

Piranha !!! incredible.

ouch, imagine u're there. :S

not enough scary ? try imagining a whole shoal of them after you.

freaky looking but at the same time, i still wanna watch it ! A LOT.

i just remembered that i haven't watch SALT !! :(
i'm gonna make han watch with me.

Cui's Surprise B'day.

2010-08-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

tada ! i'mma back ;)

we held a surprise party for cui lin on the memorable 31.7.2010 :)
NOTE FOR CUI : " Yow Cui Lin, u better remember our good deeds for ur whole life :P "
being one of the top actress, i managed to trick her into believing i went for "han's family meeting".
a so called meeting that never existed :P what to do, i have incredible acting skills !! :P wakakakkaa
*jeez, just jk, too overwhelmed.
am i counted bad for lying to my childhood buddy like that ? nah ~ it's a surprise :X
it's not lying, just not letting her to know the truth :P
destination : Garden, Curve.
dress code : all pink *nearly all
we went earlier to settle down and wait for the princess of the day.
ordered chef's recommendation which i found to be awesome.
had a little camwhore session and she arrived. SHHHHHHHHHHH.
silence. *ok, maybe just some giggles from Looi.
her eyes were covered and she was led to our table and not to mention blur about everything.
Looi even lied she went to malacca ! miraculously, she believed. xD
Mandy prepared two helium gas filled balloons and tied them onto the chair. how cute.
and most importantly, they were pink, her fav colour. ;)

camwhored while we're waiting her arrival.

bok n me :)

plaster on a smile :)

the pink balloons seat. :P

mandy :)

:O

secretly captured.

my dear :)

bok's gift.

why so shy ? :P

smile.

looi's drink.

han's.

bok's.

and finally, mine !! :D

fish and chips. yummy.

close up shot.

chef's recommendation. darn nice.

how cute is audrey ? :P

dean.

yeap, she's here. exploring her hammies.

hamsters session.

so excited. xD

what can i say, the hamster became the apple of everyone's eye that day.

cui hitting dean. ouch !

idk for what. but it's torturing !

awww. how happy :)

cute giler.

awww.

CAUTION : FRAGILE.

choon seng handing out hamster. :)

bok n me AGAIN :)

me n cui.

love ya.

mandy n her brilliant smile.

audrey n me.

presents.

big group.

cameras here n there.

cui n karina.

my hun.

:D

she was quite shocked actually. i mean surprised. she even nearly sat on her present. :O
she thought the hamster cage with a pink cloth covering was a cushion for her seat. luckily she didn't murder the hamsters in it. :X
we even had cupcakes with cui's newest fav slogan : "LEBIH NI !" written on it. xD
the most surprising things hadn't end yet.
there pops out Daniel, Shahmim, Ali...and !!
SUREN came on scene soon. :X
how would u feel if ur ex came around to ur b'day party. oh well, cui felt dead akward.
they went to redbox and came back down and joined us for a little while.
we head towards cinema for La Comedie Humaine but the time doesn't suit ours.
but Choon Seng was so eager to watch that he typically begged everyone to accompany him for a movie at least. the Sorcerer's Apprentice.
Lastly, we ended up being split into groups. some went to movie and some headed home and the others SHOPPING :D
i kinda pity han, i mean he's the only guy in my group being dragged to shopping.
must have felt bored huh ? i will treat u better, no worries :)
Mandy, our tour guide brought us to the wrong path ending up walking a further distance. xD
i got myself a dress, let's hope i don't get scoldings from aunty. :X *pray for me
headed Kluang Station for a break and some refreshments.
then we headed to flee market the second time for some accessories.
i got myself some rose hair clips. *which i hope i will use instead of keeping them only :X

cupcakes.

mine ♥

OURS. ♥

♥

:D

hide here n there.

with flash :X

Kluang Station.

the late chicken wing.

me n dear dear :)

smiles.

my dress. :)

girly roses hair clips :)

*grins :D

love the dress.

a movie that i kept laughing.

Arthur and the minimoys !

everyone headed home quite early that day.
me and han just watched Planet 51 from comp. it's quite funny and cute but i think i prefer Arthur and the Invisibles. :D
it's cartoonish but still nice.
han took me to cinema to watch La Comedie Humaine the next day. it's nice really, i laughed like MAD.
* i think everyone else did too :P
u guys should go too :D

Changed.

2010-07-23T08:11:00.000-07:00

i really don't know what am i suppose to be to you.
what kind of positions do i hold in your heart...or shall i ask, is it none at all ?
yeap, hadn't been blogging like ever since...FOREVER.
franctically, i don't really wanna blog nowadays. infected by the famous lazy disease.
if it wasn't for what happened these few days that brought me disastrously down, i guess u wouldn't see my post till august ?
u'd changed. really, i mean, quite a no. of them realized this prob too not that i'm over sensitive or something.
u started tried to ignore me. tried to cut short the conversations i started. tried to hide things from me.
it's just so not the person i knew anymore.
i felt awful. i struggled over this problem for quite some time.
i tried to tell myself everything's fine. u're gonna be back in anytime soon. but u aren't, isn't it...
u've gone with the cravings of men in this world. possessed by fame ? perhaps.
of course, this is not the first time, and definitely not the only time. i'd difficulties to just fix it up to u whenever ur "season" is back. where i'd to hang on to myself. i ought to feel tired too you know ?
i felt isolated by you. i just hate this. i wanted to stop this.
but i can't...the helpless feeling is just lingering in my heart.

Flash Backs.

2010-07-04T06:26:00.000-07:00

those sweet bitter memories flowed back.
i did have a harsh time remembering all these though.
jie came over and said that she had western cuisine for dinner.
bang. it hit me hard and nevertheless, pictures in mind pierced right through me.
suddenly i realized that mum has indeed gone for long.
out of the blue i just felt so lonely....and abandoned.
i miss her. her presence did meant something to me.
i still remember how we used to go for supper at a cafe nearby.
palm tree ? palm spring ? *damn ! i forgot their name. i hope mummy remember.
palm something.
they have good food there. i miss the food there. and of course, i miss the time i had with mum there the most.
i used to order mushroom soup or sometimes banana split ice-cream.
we can chit chat all time letting the cool breeze blew by us.
such wonderful memories. isn't it ? i missed it. i miss her. i wanna turn back the time.
i want to experience that feeling once again. just once.

went over to counseling room to hand over Miss Chai my photocopied IC. and who knows ?
she started asking questions bout my family...
and i ended up spilling my childhood stories.
cried like an hour there ?? went back class with a red nose with everyone asking
"Are u ok ?"
lol. they must be wondering what happened.
i knew i went over too long...mandy and jing ying came over to find me. i heard their voices. but they didn't barge in though. xD
teacher searched for chocolates to cheer me up. but none was found xD
too many ppl cry at counseling room ?? :X
it hurt so much when ur hidden wound was being hurt again.
just like me, i can't bear it.
especially the topic on family. it became a sensitive issue towards me.
when she finally get to noe more about my childhood.
she asked me a question that left me feeling unable to doubt.
"It's a very heavy burden isn't it ?"
upon hearing that, i teared up. she said out something that was carved in my heart since ages.
yes. i is a burden till now. i won't deny.
i felt pressurized. i had heavy burdens to carry on my shoulder.
no one knew when i cried in the living room silently at night.
such pain. such torment. it's unbearable.
cried uncontrollably.

"How do you feel towards your dad now ?"
i used to hate him. but now, i felt quite numb. i even had the difficulty to call him father. cuz we've been separated for quite some time...we don't share common topics. it's like talking to a stranger when i met him. what was being asked i will answer, that's it. i won't try to make a conversation or something and there it was ---- mere silence.
such irony. the dad that i used to love and wants to hang around last time became such a stranger to me.
the one who used to care so much about me but now abandoned me.
i had his number. but no, i won't call him. i don't know why. maybe i just don't miss him anymore ? maybe i don't want my mum to get hurt by my actions.
i used to envy those happy family around me. how caring they can be around one another.
when it was father's day or mother's day, i sit around and cry myself remembering how my friends got hugs from their mum and dad, the way a child was treated with care. how they got those attention that i needed so much.
i wanted them to be around taking care of me when i was sick. just like what other kids gets.
i used to ask the question WHY.
why can't i do the same ? why can't i get the same treatment ? why ?!
i used to ponder but now i gave up on the answers. because there was none. they doesn't exist at the first place.

a bite that leads from one to another. ♥ cadbury.

currently being dull. trying to hype up myself. i treat myself with chocolates and choc chip cookies every night for supper.
darn. what a way to cheer me up. getting fatter too. i took more than 24 cookies a day. geng leh....calories. :S
still, a great big thank u to dear n his sis today for helping to colour kajian warna. need to rush up some work. so ended up each colour one...haha...creativity contest ? xD
dear even got me cadbury choc. awwwwwww..... thank you *hugs

Cramps.

2010-06-29T05:37:00.000-07:00

i've totally forgotten when's the last time i'd updated a post. that should be like near a month isn't it...
i don't know why...blogging fever is just suddenly. "zap" !!
away from my life. LOL.
ok la, i admit. i m lazy. and i got seni project to rush on. :S
this is just some random post. cuz for what i actually wanted to post, I've FORGOTTEN.
how amazing.
first time having such a horrible cramp in school. period cramps i tink.
damn. i can't even walk properly and nearly fell down. luckily i manage to sat on the chair nearby instead of falling onto the floor. ouch. that must hurt.
was sent to bilik rawatan. but the pain was just unbearable that i can't sleep.
skipped tuition. *guilty
but i really can't move. i was on bed for quite some time. but i just can't sleep with that pain.
luckily, i was too tired. i manage to get some rest.
till now, it still hurts. :'( *sobs
i even broke into cold sweats when i reached home. i looked kinda pale. cuz my lips looks....DESATURATED ?

rushing on to finish off my seni project currently. i've been doing it for weeks with my sweetheart.
thank you dear for helping me so much :) love u !
just because of one stupid 2010 i got the whole sticker thing wrong. damn ! have to redo everything.
otherwise, i would've done by now. :S
school's having korperasi week means FOOD ! gosh, i spent 7 bucks on food just in a day. A DAY :S
and of course, i gained like 3 KG ?!
damn. gotta get back my normal weight. i'mma getting fat. :(
gtg. dun wanna write so much. hands aso lemah long-lai edi.

How Cute.

2010-06-09T09:10:00.000-07:00

today was deliberately just cute.
dear told me bout his plan before this at restaurant....the plan that i typically ruined without realizing :X
he actually planned to ask sze to help him buy the wallet i bought and give it back to me as a present
*the wallet which i really liked
F.Y.I, i am selling wallets, pouch n bags recently.
those who are interested can visit my facebook album. thank u.
ok, back to topic.
and being the innocent and ignorant me. :X i din realize that.
i was gonna sell sze my wallet first and get myself another one later...
i told her if she wants mine, i will order from supplier another new one...
so, lol. now u noe how i manage to ruin the whole thing.
so that's what they're laughing and planning behind my back all about huh ? :P

after fetching sze to bank in stuff....we went for breakfast and then they headed for cc.
game of the day : L4D2. *them, not me.
but my first time still gave them...i finally online at cc...whoops. :X
nah, takkan wan me see them play oni rite....actually i can la...but kinda waste time la...so i surf the net instead.
logged in facebook to make some final changes on the goods sold.
gosh....typing the same thing around and around again just changing one or two words is killing me...
darn tiring and at the same time annoying :S
then not to mention all those copy paste. goodness sake.
by the time they finished their game i still haven finish yet... :S so i guess u can imagine the work load i had.
afternoon time, i kinda mistaken as the eggs being cooked by han's sis was spaghetti... too far mah :X
can't see clearly...sorry. :(
han made me peanut butter bread and cooked fishballs for me. thank u dear !! :D

so, do member !! if anyone's finding bags, wallets or even pouch can find me !! :P

His Birthday.

2010-06-05T10:04:00.000-07:00

star of the day :D

typically sorry for my blog for not updating. :X
i'd been really lazy recently.
as i'd written in my past post. anniversary was indeed a disaster.
but he promised to make it up for me. let's just hope he don't break his promise again.
i "knitted" him something. it's not really knitting after all....just can't find the right words.
one for me the other for him. :)
exam was so stressful that i went to shop with cui to buy food. sushi n chocs especially !!
oh gosh...all fattening stuff :X

random pic. :) wrote this myself :P

my gift for him :) one for him, one for me.

learn this from cui :) for dear dear.

each one can get one :P

exam too stress. needs all these. yummy !!

on anniversary had sushi again as well...i'm getting a little sick of it now :\
stayed back specially for him to learn how to fold money into love shape frm emily.
luckily didn't miss uncle's car at last...or i will have to walk under the super hot sun...u know la...weather nowadays were horrible.
got him a leather wallet and hoped that he'll like it :)
i guess it would be the first time ever i wrapped up present till so nice....i mean outside only la...
once opened up can see all kind of flaws.
went to watch prince of persia with him...and eventually the movie was awesome !!
must watch...
now i realized that i wanna watch lotsa new movies !! :X
then accompanied him and his family to temple at KL.
which turned out to be TRAFFIC JAM. :S
peak hours ? perhaps.
darn. we're stuck like...NOT MOVING AT ALL in the middle of the road for an hour plus.

anniversary food.

sushi frenzy !! :P

wrapped this up for darling. :)

back view.

first time wrapping gift so nicely :P

outer layer bag.

dear dear's geh present :D

tada !! see what mess i created on the bed while wrapping present. :P

my friend was trying to cheer me up when me n dear dear argued before this....so drew me this.

i was starving. and we're late to dinner.
but his dad bought me something to eat... pancake ? whatever it is....i'd no idea what it really named after.
grateful and thank you :D
Had barbecue and steamboat at QQ.
great times together with friends. enjoyed laughing like mad... :)
ate a lot. but cooked little. :X whoops.
sze terbalik....cook for me !! i mean...US. :P wakakakakka !! thank u !!
everyone was too full then that we'll have to eat the cake the next day. xD
looi got too into her tortoise jelly... then influenced us to go eat... han went to take a half cat n bear looking jelly....made us argue on what it was... then han just poke the jelly's eyes...now we can't differentiate anymore isn't it ? xD
and of course, pui mun did create a mess later....whole table too smokey till we have to hide somewhere else instead... and the out come was....HAM HANGUS :X
then when han cut cake he was doing it slowly....in a slow motion manner so that i can take pic of him...but actually i was recording...and the whole process n conversation made us laugh.

dear's present.

bought leather wallet for dear's b'day. wanted to choose a better looking one...but dirty edi...no stock left. so took this instead.

in the wallet. specially learnt this from emily :D hearts linked together ;)

special thanks to emily !! :D

just arrived. cooking time !! :P

looi seemed so happy :P

our chef, pui mun made the condition ... SMOKEY ? xD

haha...dear dear gave me a cute reaction. xD

me n birthday boy :P

looi with her....TORTOISE JELLY :P

dear poked the jelly's eye...so no one knew what it was at last...xD

criminal !! xD

gather around.

dear stabbing the cake. xD

cut properly la.

proper way of cutting :D

present from all of them.

wrote this in card. :)

Fri, 4th June 2010.
went Jusco to buy stuff to make cards with sze earlier.
and their workers was basically firting with u. ewww.
don't they realize i can report them ?? :S
end up making cards till 3 something in the morning n woke up at 6...what's worse ? i can't sleep after i finished the cards...cuz stayed up too long edi....
the next day, how tired n sleepy.
they better appreciate my cards !!
Teacher's Day madness.
sketch was awesome.
teachers dressed up as students and act...how cute !! :D
the best Teacher's Day ever.
and there comes tze wei in wig and dancing hip hop.
gosh...if only she was a girl.
because i tink he'll have fans !!! xD
friends got their eye brow shaved away by make up artist...*not all but still, WEIRD without make up.
major difference.
how unprofessional. didn't even ask...pity them....
rach's singing was splendid !! :D
anyway, that day everything was basically awesome.

different designs.

the glitter nearly destroy my card D:

nice ??

for class teacher :)

"t" for teacher's day, for thank you and finally for Pn.Thillai ~

another round off mass that took me some time to clean up before sleep :(

sze did the other three cards.

me n kar yee got bunga telur from teacher.
for helping her take some really heavy box to her car.

eggie !! i shall eat u :P

in cheerful mode....so made a colourful card for Ms.Lee.

tada !!

Sun, 7th June 2010.

went to jusco buy food.
got some canned food, junks, ice-cream, and maggi :X
i left my bytes uneaten :\
watched anacondas.
supposingly was our make up anniversary celebration. but, dear sick edi :(
let him rest.
made me so worried :(
u ah...take care ah !! see la...play too much com edi...now headache liao la... :\

shoes gonna tear soon. so went pasar malam alone n buy shoes. walked home alone...so scary ah... :(
bought new bag too... sure kena ngam edi :X
then did nail art myself too :D

new bag. :D

i think i've finally found the use of my key chain... :D
can put on my new bag. :) wouldn't be weird rite ?? D:

my new shoes....ok mou ??
supposingly more expensive but the person say wrong price...so can get cheaper a bit. :P

drew the pattern on myself :)

time for nail art !! :D

nice ?? :)

got too bored today...thought off putting on a dramatic look that i've never tried before.

love the lash :D

nice ? :D

she's one of a kind.

Life is dramatic. So am I. :)

Disastrous Anniversary.

2010-05-31T02:24:00.000-07:00

u didn't realize how much u've hurt me... do you ?
i've cried non stop yesterday night.
my eyes were practically red, swollen and tired.
history that doesn't get into mind...instead the pictures i'd taken with you came into my mind...
flash backs and images of where u and me just knew each other came around.
how i wish we that we could turn back the time.
back to where i was so fond of u...that i could smile just by thinking ur face or writing ur name....back to those times where we cuddle around together watching movie...where i would hug u whenever i sees u...where i would hold ur hands whenever i'd the chance.

yea, i did read ur blog. and it worsen my mood.
it seems like i m not being a supportive enough girlfriend after all...
i m getting so easily emotional that i cried once again today.
yesterday was our first anniversary...
yes, i hope that we could celebrate it somewhere else and not staying up in the saloon for the whole day....
but even if we can't i hope that u could at least do something to cheer me up ?
i didn't care that much on where we'll have to celebrate it....
but it's our first year after all....
at least, it meant A LOT to me.
i hardly last that long with any guy...and u were my first.
it's special for me and needless to say, it's meaningful...to the extend that i wanted to create some memorable memories for both of us...
not a cold war, a day filled with unwanted tears, blamings and arguements.
i got so fed up of stuff. and yes, i m mad.
i am a girl too u know....at times, i ought to hope that u could just read my mind....
be more romantic... doesn't need me to say everything.
even something simple like a voluntary hug or even sharing a passionate kiss ?
i hope that u could just do that without needing me to remind u or tell u u noe....
if i did reminded u...all these seems pointless and meaningless isn't it ??
i admit i am a very bad tempered person and due to my childhood, i don't express myself well...
sometimes, i just hit u to let go of the hatred i had or even the hope that i used to put on u.

i knew that sooner or later things would have to change. but at least, give me the time....
at least i would have the attempt to try it...
i was always waiting for ur calls or need not, at least a sms.
but nevertheless, it just never came.
hours and hours i used to stare at my phone waiting for single msg for u....
but u just never find me....
it came to the extend where i have to go online, sign in my msn n wait for u....
is it that difficult to make the first move ?
and i m shameless enough to beg that that u would find me in my heart....when i couldn't hold on any longer i came to the extend to phone u up myself and u never picked up....
i got even madder when u said u were on phone with ur friend all these while talking bout ur birthday....

did u know how hard those word struck me at first ?
we're like in the middle of fight and u told me u had friends planning ur birthday celebration for u...
and thats the reason why i can't call u ? why i didn't get my replies and why i'd stared down at my cold phone for hours.
i just wanted a day that belongs to u n me....
i'd waited for u to finish ur job at saloon...i'd waited for u to get home....
i hope that at least by that time we're being cooled down...
so i can spend the rest of the day with u ....i didn't even wanna waste a single second of it...
but little did i know....i'd waited n waited....and it's already 11 plus...and yet....not a single word from u...my phone was cold as ever,
now i understands what does it meant like by time and tide waits for no man.
i hid at a corner silently sobbing to myself....afraid of being heard by anyone in the house....
i hid my face by turning my back over to my babysitter because i m afraid that she'll ask me why i cried ??
i m afraid that she'll start to backstab u once again....telling me that we're not meant for each other.
i can't sleep well that night. and i went to school with my puffy swollen eyes.
i m tired. i m really very tired.

i don't know how to face u again....
tomorrow is ur birthday....but i just can't get the courage to see u again....i don't know how should i react
my long prepared present for u was starring at me as if mocking me.
i wanted to celebrate ur birthday with u...i didn't want this to continue...but i just dunno how....
i just want u to know, after all, i still love you.

Approaching.

2010-05-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

previously went wedding dinner with han and his parents.
feel a bit pai seh....cuz like not related to me also...xD
ah wan jie jie help me straighten my hair....awwwwww....how sweet...thank u :D
and there's where i got my first ever flower from han...lol...
not really counted la actually....it's just his corsage :P
a sweet pink rose :D
and yup, we had some wine :X
nah ~ not a lot...just a little. :P
our first year is coming. i'm so happy :D
count down of 8 more days ?? :P wakakakakak...*ok, i a bit siao edi. :X

bridal's flower. pretty isn't it.... *sigh

seems like reception counter. xD

cute flower girls.

oops. my bad ?? or is it because they moved too fast... :X

clearer shot.

saying vows.

souvenirs that we've forgotten about. :X

chocolate cake.

odd ? :X

artificial type of SHOCK.

whoopsie.

his corsage.

so gardeny and romeo & juliet feel...xD

rose petals on table.

our shared white wine.

this is my darling :)

loves.

i change my spec's lens to new ones edi :) yay...much clearer.
and went one u to find clothes for han but turned out to be getting sneakers and ties only instead. xD
and we found one pair of shoe that looked damn alike like han's old shoe...but this new one is from adidas...xD
took a pic :P let's compare !! :D

my old lens....got two red lines scratches...grrhh...who did it ?!

left is new, right is old. alike leh !! xD

aunty's house black out...ouch !! freaking hot :( and there's when han's mini fan came to use...i on it !! :P
at least got some wind....not that hot....xD
today went to watch once a gangster...a comedy that's 18 above.
lol....why put comedy 18 above then ?? i just dun understand them :X
physics paper sucks like mad. i mean everyone is complaining...come on !! darn it...i hate her.
great....more horrible papers comin up !! :\

the movie.

i m so in love with this recently :X *fattening.

random fan pattern.

i do love you :)

thank you dear for ur support all these while :)

my wish to every students having exam :X

random pic. i made them !! :P

Library.

2010-05-14T04:26:00.001-07:00

ok...ok...i knew that this incident had passed like A WEEK ?
but, hey ! comm'on i'm a busy person k ?! :P *random excuses.
that night was eventually awesome. i went to a club like first time of my life.
eh eh eh ! dun misunderstand...i'm not bad. ;)
i'm a good girl :D
actually didn't wanna go in at first but since everyone went in...takkan u want me to stand alone outside isn't it...
so, finalle ~
went in :X
have to order some alcohol for the table. if not, OUT !! :O
had games and yea, we all laughed like mad and had a blast that very night.
the cake was left uneaten xD
cuz everyone was just too full after dining at Italiannies.
drunk mandy got too hype. crashed to the holder and it fell on the person behind the holder. xD
we laughed like mad because of this incident....everyone's eyes were on us. ok, mostly.
and she kept apologizing though we doubt that the person can hear her cuz the music was blasting in our ears we barely able to listen to each other.
looi n pf kept drinking and at last, they hugged pillar ! xD LOL.
more pics would be on fb. :D

clubbing look ? :O

lurves.

polaroids. :D

me n the birthday girl, mandy. :)

the double "a". amy & audrey.

aiks. looi just dodge. and now she's off the camera.

me n bok :)

me n dear dear :)

oops. blurred. :X

my prince charming :D

candid shot :P

smile sweetie :D

my new heels on sales. love it.

me n pei fern :)

me n looi :)

food of the day.

pizza !! yummy ~

potatoes n chicken :)

lovely cake.

awww...no chance to eat :(

cake being packed up.

cute cup cakes :D

bee's lover. :P

me n leng lui audrey :)

going crazay.

kisses.

i just love him :)

kiss darling.

wanna join ??

alcohol !! :X

good girls like me read in the library :P

me n mandy :)

underage promoter. xD

who wants some ?? :P

solemnity.
nostalgic moments.

i'm such a poser. xD

group pic :)

i am not drunk. xD

Time's Up.

2010-05-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

the long waited college days for him had reached.
he was excited ?
i was happy for him. but at the same time, i can't deny that i'm a bit unhappy.
selfishness perhaps ?
i just can't leave him. affections too strong.
i told myself not to drop a tear. but, i failed.
maybe too many REAL LIFE situations gave me that feeling.
it's like nearly every couple broke up after entering college.
whenever they're in different stages of life. their love seems to be having more difficulties to survive...don't they ?
even those that had been together for YEARS of time.
those whom seemed so mushy n sweet around.
i always thought that they would still be together...
but they can't survive the blast.
can we ??
entering different stages of life creates different and not to mention, more obstacles to be overcome and more distractions.
i do hope that we can still stay together no matter what may befall us.
i love you. i really do.

母亲节快乐 ♥

2010-05-09T05:06:00.000-07:00

妈咪，好想念您喔。母亲节又到。
虽然我不能在您身边和您庆祝。。。但是我还是祝妈咪能够度过一个美好的母亲节。

祝您身体健康。记得要好好照顾身体哦。
今天打了电话给你想要和您说声母亲节快乐可是你没接。。。应该是很忙吧。没关
系，我在这里写给你。
我知道你在外面很辛苦的工作想要让我读书，想要给我过好一点的生活。。。
我知道的。不用担心我，我会听话。
我会努力读书。。。不会让您失望的。妈咪，我爱您。
永远爱您的，幸怡。

Solemn.

2010-05-06T08:53:00.000-07:00

perhaps it would be because of the condition of the family i grew up in that he would leave me. perhaps.
all those possibilities that u've once mentioned to me.
but it wasn't my fault isn't it ?? why ?! why are u blaming me on it ?! why must u shatter my dream ?! it was my only hope... i had not asked for anything but just this once. i wanted ur blessings and support. not your mockings and discouraging words that stabs right through me. i didn't ask for all these !! i didn't have a choice to choose and say no to all these don't i ?! it was the adult's decision not mine. so why am i at fault for it ?!
bitch with two masks whom everyone hated so much. * more than 2 masks actually.
to be honest, i m so sick of it. SICK OF YOU.
so f*ck off.

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i've learnt to be more dependent on you. i'm addicted that i can't leave u now.
getting a glimpse of hints that u might actually leave me hurts me so badly.
i hadn't slept well recently. just by dropping tears for u. and it happened for NIGHTS.
i'm tired. really tired. headache like mad that sometimes i tend to lose control and starts to cry out of the blue.
i guess pressure had really got the better of me.
i promised her i won't cry over it anymore. but sometimes, i just tend to break that promise.
it's difficult u know. it's way easier to say then to do when images and voice flash back into my mind haunting me.
yea. i grew in a broken condition family. and maybe because of that. i m lack of love.
and when i met you. u provided me with your love.
i don't like the feeling that u might leave. because it give me that same feeling again.
where i lost love. where he left us behind without looking back nor had sympathy.
what i feared the most ? i think i knew now.
i'm afraid of the departure of my love ones. and YOU, are one of them.
i don't know what i will be doing without you. i would be lost.
i am easily provoked. and jealous is definitely my character.
i don't like losing my love to someone else nor did i like the feeling of sharing you with someone else.

i just don't like u getting too close with them. i am noticing all those small actions that u both shared. and i really take it into my heart. i don't like the feeling. it's bitter.
i knew that both of u had nothing ambiguous in between but i just can't stop myself from thinking something else.
all those possibilities were floating around me in my mind as if teasing and mocking me.
so would you please, for my sake, don't get too close with them. think of my feelings please.
you don't know how much i had suffered.
mum had asked me why am i writing like i cried in my previous post. even though she can't read english fluently.
she manage to get some meaning and was asking what happened.
am i being bullied ?
she was so worried. that she said anything also must tell her. don't let other ppl bully me.
i cried. i wanted to pour out to her all my feelings that very moment. a nervous break down i guess. but i didn't.
i said i was fine. but i knew i wasn't and that i was pretending to be fine back then.
even though sometimes we have different opinions...when u thought that it wasn't important. and it won't affect us much...IT DID. at least it did to me. i felt the pain. and i do care. i just can't take it.
i know i am selfish. but that's just me right ? will you accept it generously ?
even though i hated my babysitter much. i can't help to think of the possibility that she said u will leave me one day.
i can't take it. and i don't wanna believe it.
it's not that i don't have confidence in you. i didn't have confidence in myself. do you get it ?
perhaps it was all related to the condition i grew up in. i have low self esteem. i don't trust that i have the ability to make you stay with me because i am not that special after all.
who am i ? NO ONE. such uncertainties drives me crazy.

Ip Man 2.

2010-05-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

awesome awesome awesome awesome !!!
i love ip man 2 ♥
it's so nice :D
have the urge to clap when he won the battle.
strongly recommend u guys to watch it :P
awaiting ip man 3 !! :D
had lotsa food today. especially in cinema time.
enjoyable time with han eating sushi ----- yummy !! :D
and bites ! *ate one no choc inside one :( kena tipu...
had a short talk with him in the food court n ended up having red swollen eyes n nose...
i can't believe i m going to tuition with that face :S
came home n saw ip man 2 on the front page of the entertainment section.
jay chou gonna be bruce lee in ip man 3 ?! LOL.
wonder how it would turn out to be....
regretful thing bout ip man 3 is donnie yen gonna be acting old there then....guess it won't have much action scene of his ?? D:

did lotsa sewing work n making "keychains" lately....cute ones using wools :D
pics will be on later ;)
special thanks to ping n lulu .

Iron Man 2 ♥

2010-04-30T06:44:00.000-07:00

awesome ♥ .
i love Iron Man 2 !!!
i love Robert Downey Jr !!
man, so far, my impression on his movies characters were all typically genius, capable, mature. :D
definitely, recommended. oh, well, not gonna say more.
doesn't wanna spoil the surprise :P
i love Sherlock Holmes too !! waiting second one.
and waiting Iron Man 3 !!!
jeeezzzzz.....their tech in Iron Man 2.....i wanted that !!
darn cool. MAGNIFICENT.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......i'm missing the show already.
awaiting next, Resident Evil 4 !!! *eyes shines brightly.

night time, over bored. went to experiment on my fake lashes.
this time lower lash ! :P
oh well, no make up, NOTHING.
i look...horrid in a way.
nah ~ dun care. just stuck up i wanna see will i look weird in lower lash.
guess it doesn't turn out so bad. but it took me quite sometime to get it on cuz nearing our inner corner eyes are moist. so, it's difficult for glue to stay.
grrrhhh....
my lash were being hurt later. i meant REAL ONES.
when removing fake lash....i kinda accidentally pulled out my real ones too.
yikes ! ouch !!
pity my lower lash...edi so little some more kena pull out :(

how ?? first time leh.

:)

yen ping made me this.

thanks ping :D

bio teacher drew a pic of baby being breast feed but the baby seemed more like sotong to me :X
hahahahhaha ! laughed like mad that day.

Secrets Revealed.

2010-04-29T02:28:00.000-07:00

god knows what happened.
dunno which bitch just bocorkan my rahsia to aunty. and led me to deep trouble.
busy body gila...
jeez....her spies are getting more n more effecient in work isn't it ??
but guess it would be good though...no need hide so much...
but from now on, i doubt that she would trust me anymore. :S
yea, me n han...she knew it. The great significant 27th April.
now she wanna meet up with his parents pulak.
well, she thought mummy dun noe. but well, she knew it like LONG TIME AGO.
gor wrote some crap to me through sms saying prepare for the worst scenario, aunty will help to cool my mum down n settle stuff....damn zadao.
please la, i dun need ur help.
then he crap all kinds of things saying he'll chase me out of the house if i did something to make aunty angry.
f*ck off la.

being darn stress.
financial probs. studies probs. relationships probs. family probs.
f*ck. i'm now as good as dead.
i am tired.
i have my limits too.
shared my miseries with my friend to cool down a bit.
yen ping just prayed for my probs in skool today...
really touched n happy for having such a great friend.
italiannies turn out to be kinda normal trip.
just makan makan n watch movie.
after dining someone paid less n we'll have to rush for our kick-ass movie.
kinda SPEECHLESS.

went over for drinks with him n his friends.
but ended up being real tired for the whole 6 days a row 5.30 am wake up alarm.
and all those events for the day. plus, i was kinda bored n isolated in a way.
my prob i guess.
had a talk on how to manage stress recently.
doesn't help much actually.
but i learnt a new way of releasing stress...
taught by carmen,
SLAP A FRIEND.
lol. even the speaker was laughing and finding it special but, dun try.
u'll end up getting more slaps back n not to mention STRESS.

watched Descent 2...kinda zadao at the ending.
today we had a seminar on how to ans eng paper.
honestly, except the letter of break-up the speaker showed us earlier....which made us laugh like mad...
she doesn't entertain us anymore. bored till DEATH.

i talked bout my future studies with my tuition teacher when she asked me.
i told her bout my plans to study biotech in perak's UTAR.
but mum was against it.
i knew that she's worry that anything might happen to me or so whatever.
but i need her to know what my tuition teacher told me was right too.
studying outside doesn't meant that i would turn out bad or something.
even if i didn't study there....it doesn't meant that nothing will happen to me isn't it.
i m trying to learn to be reasonable as well as independent.
i have to grow as time passes by. maturation in me is need.
so why not give me a try ??

nevertheless, i've said.
i promised to reconsider on this issue n will not mention it until i've finished my exam.
so just think that i'm talking to myself k ?? ;)