wishesfreedom
i' m back ~~~~~~~~ ^^

got miss me a not ?? sure got rite ?!? =P wakakkakaka.... * forgive me...perasan attitude takin over ~ =X

my room key ~~~

well, at least i missed u guys a lot ! =]
especially somebody ~~~~~~ =P tis year's camp was kinda fun....except the part i got stomachache n diarrhea durin camp... T^T
so unlucky.... haih.... missed games for 2 days....

on friday i took off with my bible study leader to Ilham Resort....
durin the journey i was sms-in ~~~~ haha....need some1 to accompany de mah....long journey leh.... reach there then help to arrange tables n chairs for the younger children of the camp then went to check-in...
i was placed in room 6061(3) the third room....
first day activity was jungle trackking and listenin msg at night.... goin up n down was really makin me tired...somemore i ran down the slope till i reached the field.... the first girl who reached ! yay !!!! =P
there's oni a few of us....others was much slower cuz they walked back....n we ran back....xD

it was may chien's birthday too...so we planned a suprise attack for her at night to help her celebrate....ate lotsa cake n junk food tat night....gosh....i'm gaining weight....oh no ~~~ but the cake was yummy....can't help but admit tat...xD on the second day i had some food n half-boiled eggs in the mornin...

BUT

unfortunately, the half-boiled eggs don't even seemed to be half-boiled....it's not cooked at all to be precise....it's raw ! uggh ! horrible taste ~ i had eaten raw eggs with rice b4....it tasted nice...but tis ! ewwwwww ! tasted awful ! i guess their eggs weren't fresh after all.... =S i had stomachache for tat day later...so i went to bed and missed bible study for the topic on accountabilty and games....but never mind....cuz i knew one of the games for tat day have to eat yucky food....
raw eggs, onion, garlic, coke, chili padi...things like tat mixing together....imagine the taste.....

awful ! =S

luckily i dun have to eat those raw eggs again or i will really throw up....
he was so worried when he knew i had stomachache....awwwwwwwww......... caring isn't he ? no worries ! i'm ok now.... ;) love him !
wait ....

tomorrow was worse....food poisonin or wat ? i really dunno....cuz not oni me get.....quite an amount of ppl had stomachache and diarrhea with me.... =S yea....went to the toilet like....5 times ?! *faint
help ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ *wail

horrible isn't it ? i missed games again.... i was doubting whether i should tell him bout today's diarrhea a not....cuz i dun wan him to be worried....but still, at last, i chose to tell him....cuz we promised to be truthful to each other.... =]

this is the worship hall....it's quite early now...so oni a few ppl is here...

the hall where we dine....

MDC Camp family night ~ lotsa ppl right ? xD

the family night for tat day was a blast....
i felt much better at night after restin in the afternoon...
i believed tat everyone enjoyed themselves.... =D
it was soooooo much fun ~
we had some singspiration....and some performance by the children... then announced the marks of the groups....there's four groups....our's is armoured for battle....
we were the lowest mark group....oni managed to get 10 .... the first group leadin is 20 marks which is double our marks....the second group is 18 marks while the third is 12 or 14...sumwhere there....we'll have to work real hard to chase back our marks....but paul and jeremy was sayin it's ok...just enjoy the game....position doesn't matter....


the first game ~ The Real Family ~

we started on game 1....entitled The Real Family game....aunty Rachel took out some names from a box to be the players..
.they were required to close their eyes....while other pl conducting the game were placin food on the table behind them....crackers, lollipop ( really big ones ), chili padi, bitter gourd, a bunch of candies, lemon....things like tat...and the were then they were asked to open up their eyes and start eating the food on the table....except the plates, the wrappers of the food, the table and the table cloth... they were basically required to eat up every single food layed before their eyes....

the second game ~ Paul and Timothy !

MGT game ~

the second game was called Paul and Timothy...
given a bible verse each....consisting 120 words....the participants were given a piece of paper to jot down the verse being read by those they called up....so imagine a few voices talkin together nearby u....and u have to get wat was said....it really needs ur concentration and see how well u knew the person's voice... the third game was MDC Got Talent (MGT) .... it consist of four other catogories....Spell Bound, Scholar, Star Performer, Sensodraw and Super Humer....each group were to choose out 5 members frm their team....throw the dice see wat u got n start playing ~ Spell Bound is a game where the person have to spell out the words in a reverse order and the members have to rush to the front....say out the group name n tell out the ans....correct ans will increase mark BUT ! wrong ans will be deducted marks.....so, dun tink it's fun simply tellin out ans....u might get ur team into trouble...

our five MGT members ~ xD

Scholar test u on ur knowledge bout the bible....see how well u noe ur bible....if u r unable to ans....the question will be opened up to the public for some certain time limit.....about Star Performer....u will be given ur character and u were to act it out for ur members to guess....Michael did a great job at tis ! xD
hahahahhahahaha..... Sensodraw....well, as it's name was clearly stated....it's about drawing....NO speaking just like Star Performer....u have to draw on the paper board and it's open to all to guess....so, the faster u guess, the better ! =) Super Hummer were suppose to be someone humming a song and people will have to guess the song name....we had lots of fun and laughter tat very day...finally, it came to the last game ... Sell Us TAFSA... TAFSA stands for teachability, accountability, faithfulness, servanthood and availability.... all being taught n discussed durin bible study.... we were suppose to throw the dice first and u will be given a tool depending on the num u got.... our group got toilet roll....lol....but they prefer to call it tissue....haha....we were given a task to use the toilet roll in our advertisment before proceeding to our song performance....

the pillow advertisment...see Tim sleepin soundly with his snores ~ xD

take away pillow edi still wanna sleep...xD lol ~

in the advertisment....we were suppose to show out the quality of TAFSA....we got servanthood and suppose to use the toilet roll....oopps....forgotten...tissue....to the fullest based on our creativity showin tat particular quality....
we made a short advertisment usin the example of Jesus washing the feet of his disciples in the bible....we used the tissue to clean up other ppl legs ( of course is pretend oni la.... ) others group like uncle Michael Tan's group got a pillow to promote....he started off his speech by sayin something like tat....Timothy was pretendin to sleep on the pillow and i mean SOUND ASLEEP type *fake snores too ~ ...
really cannot wake up geh....even though uncle Michael Tan jumped on the stage....lol ~
it's been ages tat ppl is suffering frm the same old problem iaitu "masalah tak cukup tidur"....lol ! with his tone....omg ....everyone is laughing .... u should be there to see tis scene....oni by lookin at it urself u will feel funny....

then it came to song performance....all the 5 TAFSA words must be in the lyrics of our song....exactly tat word....and we were not suppose to use any instrument for our song....we have to use a few elements to make out the music....water, wood, sand, wind, metal tings like tat.... aunty was so cute....when Daniel was listing out the elements she said fire the next !
lol....tis is not the concept of yin and yang aunty....xD
we used the song of Jason Mraz - I'm Yours as our tone....well, i liked our song a lot... =D we filled in the bottle with beach sand and volleyball court sand....used pail as drums....stuff like tat ...the music turn out to be great.... =] Gideon's group used the tone of Under The Sea...yea...the one in disney xD

Gideon's group performin....with special effect....abel's gurgling water to make under the sea sound...xD

can see Barnabas holdin the "mask" a not ? haha....

but their song was nice too...i like Barnabas group song a lot....it's very catchy and nice....goes well with the song lyrics....i'm not sayin tat i dun like my group 1....just tat i like their rhythm a lot as well.... =P Barnabas put on some kind of mask thing on his face....drew on paper....it's so cute ! very funny expression....then as the song lyrics changes from smile to smiley and a crying face....the paper was being pulled down 1 by one and the expression changes.... creative and nice ~ very interesting ~~~~ xD
then, it was the time for results.....i was expecting us to get last at first....well, something turn out to be unusual....they announced the name of the groups tat got third n fourth place and our name was not called....
wow ~ suprise suprise....
i was taken aback...

really shocked....tat means we are second or first place....but i thought we were getting the second place cuz first seems kinda impossible isn't it....
well, they announced the first place and our group named was called ! wooooooooohooooooooo ~~ yipee ~ =P
we got first ! hurray ~~~~~


then Paul our group leader was called to the front ....infront of him was 4 prizes....big n small....we dunno wat's in....the small or the big prize is more valuable ? no one noes....except those hu prepared the gifts.... so Paul was asked to decide which gift he wants for us n which to give to other groups....lol ~ a difficult situation isn't it.... he gave off the biger gift to other groups and we took a smaller one....xD haha....uncle Thomas was sayin us....really humble now....xD after tat we had prayer and went out the hall for some fruits....duku langsat, rambutan, mangoesteen....yummy ! they were so sweet.... =P a gud news for us....the schedule changed...tomorrow we will start on the msg at 11 so after breakfast is our free time...we were allowed to enjoy ourselves at the beach for a longer time....xD on tat night many of us slept quite late....all ran to another person's room to chit chat....and i tink every nite i had supper....goodness.....now back edi dunno how to diet down back....T^T i collected some shells and brought it home....Barnabas found a dead crab....well....it oni left back some portion....one hand left....some legs left and some others gone....=X

the beach...

yea....it's not clean.... =/

i dried it off under the sun when i reached home....the shell of the crab was actually greenish...mana tau after i dried it under the sun it changed into orange-reddish colour....LOL ! cooked crab !! O.o ! wan some ?? xD but after it was dried it was so fragile....so easily broken T^T
i put in the container n other shells crushed some parts of the shell....sob...sob....i haven't even take a pic of it's original form ! how can the shells do this to me..... =(

my cooked n spoiled crab...so cham....

last day at P.D...enjoyin at the beach....

i even caught back 2 hermit crabs ! alive ones ~~~~
but they die on the way back la....sorry ~ =X

yesterday i went to sze's house to bake again....three cakes in a shot yesterday....xD
haha...so fun ~ =P
i did a cake all by myself leh.... =] so happy....xD
when we were outside the shop wan to go in buy ingredients....we saw 2 weirdos....a female adult and a teenage boy....the woman keep on ask the guy to take pics of the shop....they summore took our pic as we enter the shop....stupid....violating our privacy ! give back our pics.... >=(

i have no idea those pics are for wat but they have been taking quite an amount....when we were about to leave...we even heard the shop owner say wan call police because they also notice those 2 fella was outside takin pics for quite some time edi....i heard tat they're even finding inspector's num ! wow ~ beat tat .... xD guess this is pretty serious huh ? =X

i hope tis long blog will satisfy my readers tats waiting...haha... (* a note to jie mei : dun fall asleep while readin tis ah ! )
wishesfreedom
我们和好了哦 ~ 我和我滴姐妹 ~
终于没有在冷战下去了。。。松了一口气 ~ 又少了一样东西烦恼了。。。。 =)
冷战完后我们还真是讲了很多话阿。。。。
谢谢你啦姐妹 ~ 我真的给你弄破产了啦 ~ 哈哈哈。。。。惨咧。。。以后不要乱
冷战了。。。。你看!战争后的后果多严重阿。。。。XD

这个星期五要去 P.D 了哦。。。。haih。。。又没得上网了啦。。。。我会超想念
你们滴 !=(
回来时候应该有一大堆东西写了~ XD 可可。。。。星期一就会回来的咯 ~~
要想我啊 ! =P

=) 好想念你哦!虽然今天才刚看见你 。。。。xD *muacks ! 哈哈。。。。刚才
有人不爽错人了哦。。。。竟然在不爽自己。。。。下次不要乱猜了哦。。。要信
我多点。。。知道吗?? =P 这次就原谅你啦。。。毕竟你也是因为在乎才胡思乱
想的。。。。XD
突然间想起星期一的事了。。。。又再对自己傻笑。。。。记得我们在对着墙壁的
那些画说了什么吗 ? 想起又会在那边微笑。。。虽然我们好像是在讲废话啦。。。
可是那时开心就好咯 ~ 对不对?? =P

好啦,想了很久都想不到要写什么了啦。。。。都是写短一点。。。。等下怕你们
读了会睡着。。。尤其是我的姐妹阿。。。。很容易被我的 blog 催眠 ~ wakakakkaka.....xD
wishesfreedom
我不知道我们到底怎么了。。。我们是在斗气吗 ?
我从来没有嫌你烦还是什么的。。。你也有在我的生活里扮演过重要的角色。。。

最近你没来找我。。。我以为你还在生气。。。所以更加不敢去打扰你了。。。
就因为我有了一个男朋友。。。你就要我失去友情吗?
如果那是你想要的。。。我会尊重你。。。以后都不跟你说话,免得你不开心。。。

我并没有生气你还是什么的。。。我只是想要你知道。。。如果你还想跟我当朋友
的话。。。我随时欢迎你。。。我会等你这个姐妹。。。不过如果你不想的话,我
也会成全你的。。。
wishesfreedom

i left my drawing paper with him after Pn.Goh's class...so today went and claim back in the morning....
missed him sooooooooo much ! =P keke...
to see him faster, i fasten my pace....aunty gave me money to help her buy bread....and i told aunty tat i m gonna take things first before comin back....still i cant stay too long...have to be back fast....=/

i saw him....and smile spread across my face automatically.... =D
just glad to see him around....
he's holding my drawing paper....and below it...he's hiding a drawing he taken to laminate...a very cute picture...our story...wakakakaka....bear with ketchup ? xD
his caring attitude....
awwwwwww.........soooooooooooo sweet ~~~~~~~~~~ isn't he adorable ??? *muacks !
when i took it...i have the urge to plant a kiss on his cheeks...as a sign of thankfulness...but of course, i resisted la...we're in the public with adults watching....better not simply do....later somebody found out we'll be dead meat....
i love it very much....simple things like tis can make me happy....at least, he took the effort to make it for me... i guess tis is to comfort me when i m feeling down....thank u very much ! =)

so whenever i tink bout my family issues n stuff...i can take out the picture....and ponder on wat happen....i guess tat would help in lifting a smile....because the words written on will comfort me....i noe he's by my side.... =]

isn't it nice ?? adorable hor ?? =D


a clearer version ~ our love story ?? xD

member tis ? xD haha....i took a pic of it b4 throwing.... =P

wishesfreedom

thank u for stayin by my side....always encouraging me and giving me the strength to move on....
helpin me to face the circumstances and hardships that befalls me...
wat u wrote to me really helped me a lot....felt much better ....much contented because i have someone that really cared...
i felt so lucky to have u with me...i really thank God for that....
as i was readin wat u wrote me yesterday i was crying again...eyes in tears...
not because of i am sad over the issue....it's pure happiness tear....a tear that fell because of ur concern...

i felt proud to have u...虽然有时看了你写了什么会觉得你有点傻。。。( 不是笨哦!)
可是,我就是喜欢这样的你。。。哈哈。。。可能是傻得可爱吧~ ^^
ur image in my heart will always be the best....so, no worries ~ =D
ur words did touched my heart and brought me smiles.... contented and joyous smiles... =)
and i m grateful of that...
i will keep my promises...i am serious bout tis...and i will go steady ! ;)
*hugs and kisses ~ xoxo !
love ya always.... =P


wishesfreedom
suddenly, i was reminiscing my past...
talking about my past .... how much do u noe about me ?
how well do u noe me ?
who is the Sin Yee u r talking to all these while ? is she from the past a cheerful person ?
is she just wearing a smile on her face all these while but deep down she's actually breaking down ?

do i have a happy n memorable childhood ?
well, actually...no, i don't really have one...
i cant really member much things tat are happy when i m young....cuz not much happy things happened i suppose ?
the things i member so clearly was the situation where i saw both of my parents yelling at each other in the room while i was peeking in from the door outside....i was a kid tat time....barely seven....maybe six or five...somewhere around tat age....

the next minute, i saw my mum in tears....a face full of sorrow and pain...an expression tat i will never forget...crying at the stairways....tears flowing down from her eyes....
he left...
he just left....walked out of the house...and never came back...he didn't even take the effort to look back....
he didn't turn to see me or mum...
leaving me and mum behind....
i am his child ! his one and only child ! don't he love me ???
how can he be so cruel to us ? how can he be so irresponsible and just left both of us like tat ?

from tat moment onwards, i decided....i hate him...for taking the decision to leave us and to find that woman...
wat's so gud with tat bitch ?! why must she ruin my family ?!?! can't she find a better one ?? wat's wrong with her desperate case ??
i was fuming in anger deep down inside....hatred took over....
i still remember clearly the words tat my mum spoke....
she asked me in mandarin , " Sin Yee, mummy and daddy is going to separate already...u want to follow daddy or mummy ? "
a question that hold me back....

separate ?? wat do u mean by separate ?? i asked myself....a kid that knows nothing bout the complicated relationships adults having....it really makes me ponder...
moments later, i realized...he's not coming back....not anymore....
everytime i flashback n thought bout tis....i will cry....and i m doing so as i m writing tis blog....
family's love and concern is wat i have craved for all these while....
there's this time i became mischievous...i forgotten wat i did that made my mum freaking mad...my mum fetch me to the playground nearby that woman's house....asked me to go and find tat....of course i m reluctant to do so....i begged over and over again....crying all my heart out...
finally, she stopped askin me to get down....we cried together that very night....
from tat night onwards, i m very afraid tat mum would ask me to leave her again....i m afraid tat she will forsake me...and i will be totally lost....no more family's love....

because of this separation....i have lost it...lost the love of family i tried to hold on all these while...
dad left for another woman....mum can't be by my side because she have to support the whole family by herself now...no more depending on him...she went outstation....
work very hard...just to support tis family....but....nothing's goin easy on her...circumstances befall her...
wat kind of situation can make things worse ?
well, sad to say.... A LOT MORE can.... =(
inconsiderate family members....my grandparents they all...
for ur info, my grandparents is those type tat care son more than daughter one....
so, when anything happened to their beloved son, which happens to be my uncle....
they will come lookin after my mum to ask for help...

wat kind of help....? MONEY....always the same old thing....money, money, money...tats all they freakin cared !
wat ? my uncle is their son then my mum is not their daughter ?! why must be so pilih kasih....
don't they noe tat it's so unfair to my mum....do they even realize how tired she is....? how hard she worked just to cope up with their wishes ?
my uncle's factory had some financial problem....they seeked my mum's help....
my second uncle gamble n lost a great amount of money....they asked my mum to help him pay off the debts....
my grandfather was admitted to the hospital...he's needin money for surgery...and all of them backed off...leavin my mum to pay off the bill....
and these are oni SOME of the situations .... there's more....it's just tat i dun wanna list it out....=/

they called again for money from my mum....why ? why ? why they just cant stop tis ?? has tis became sum kind of routine or customary to them ??
i felt so heartbroken every single time i thought about it....
my mum didn't know that all these while i knew all these....because she never told me....she's tryin to bear it off herself....but i manage to find out frm auntynanny...
so i had tis feelin of heart gettin pierce through whenever my mum act fine infront of me when she's not....i knew she's not....she's just tryin to act strong infront of me...
she cried on the phone infront of aunty before....when i found out this....i can really feel tat my heart bleeds....sumtimes....i just ..... hate them ?
i have no idea...i m so sick of it...so tired of all this....it's like a living nightmare ! haunting me....

i felt so much better after spillin out all my feelings....rather than keepin it all to myself....and starts spilling into tears during the night....
i dunno....i just dunno....
i dunno whether can i really hate them....all of them....
sometimes i will say tat i hate them...but after a while....i will start doubting myself....n slowly i will try to forgive them....but they are repeating it again n again....can't they just stop it ? i beg u all....please ?? =/
my mum asked me before....do i hate him for leaving us behind....i said yes at the beginning but not tat much later...but do i really meant wat i said ? i m not sure....i m just ....just....so confuse.... *sigh
how can i let all this go ?? can i just forget about them ?? sometimes, i m just so mad at them fir their actions and behaviour.....but sometimes i can't help but to forgive them because they were part of my family....

every single time i saw him again i will cry...no doubt about it....
it has been six years....and there he goes....suddenly pop out infront of me again.....
sayin tat all these while he missed me and stuff...
but a question came to me....if he really does missed me these much ....why didn't he came to find me earlier....why out of sudden now ? why after six long years....my question remained unanswered....
i really doubt it....does he really care about his child ? does he really misses me ?
i just don't know...............so uncertain........so insecure.........


wishesfreedom
it's his birthday today....

happy birthday dear ~
i'm glad tat i can see u today....though it's just for a short while.... =)
he's sweet... very caring indeed....

the very first bf tat i got in skool ...
haha...how our feelings developed ?
it all started with conversations on msn.... =P
we started findin each other whenever we saw each other online....seems like it has became a routine of us...
we can talk crap and laugh heartily .... yea, we may sound like some nutcase...but hu cares...we enjoy it...and tats all we need to care about.... =D

i began to speak with him at skool....on teacher's day, he helped me to take my things....standin behind me to help me block sun...usin his paper and fan both of us... sweet isn't he ? i love him dearly... =)
his adorably cute attitudes...bringing out some sense of childishness n sometimes over perasan ( tat is wat create laughters isn't it ? so i will not get bored ~ xD ) ....but still i love him the way he is....tats all i need to care...

i was suppose to see him in Pn.Goh's class tis mornin....
walked till nearby skool edi....and i forgotten his birthday present ! oh no ~ crap....ran home to take it...xD
and i finally ran back to skool again...so "dai tau ha" rite....xD
first time holding hands with him is on his birthday....and his friends saw too ~ O.o
ooppsie ~

today i planted a soft peck on his cheeks.... * sheepish look ...
haha....cuz he claimed it back frm me as i had promised....xD
n he did back the same later....* face red ....cover n hide myself...
awwwwww ~~~~ he's just so sweet ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ agree ?? ^^
i m just glad tat i had him by my side ... *happiness showerin around me ~
today is his day....n he went out to celebrate with his friends....
i pray tat God would shower him with blessings , taking care of him , granting him safety journey and health...

hmmm....sad....cuz i can't go....tuition....=(
it's ok...at least i had him in the mornin...=D
haha....he called n i heard his voice changed....lol ~ too much of singing n shouting ?? xD
member to take care ya ! i will keep an eye on u ~ =P