wishesfreedom
failure. total failure in me.
i am tearing up...tears overflowing...drowning in misery.
cant stop crying,
i cant stop thinking about it.
my memories on it just wouldn't fade away.
u lied.
i thought u were betrayin me,
even though i noe u wouldn't,
u are definitely doin tis on a purpose...
i cant help but simply thinking n hitting myself with tremendous horrendous possibilities.
that u are leaving.
it makes me think myself being very "xiao qi"
but sometimes, i can't help but feelin the jealousy in me being aroused...and i hate that.
am i really over reacting ?
( at the same time listening to a sad song made my mood frm bad to worse ! )
seeing both of ur pics made me think she looks more suitable for u.
i couldn't tink less that she looks more like a gf to u more than me
cuz u all were just....so close bonding with each other....
well, seein ppl commentin bout the photo album agreeing on my thought made me cried non stop for the night.
i wouldn't mind if u guys were meetin up in a group...but alone...
i'm sorry. i just can't take it.
my eyes are sore n tired right now...cheeks wet....tears rolling down continuously...
i just wanna escape....run away...erase all these images frm my head which are non stop flashing in my mind on n off...now n then....
do u really understand wat m i being sad about ?
i dun wanna see u being so closed up with another girl...the feelin is just eatin me up...
i m caring way too much about u to let u do so...
yes, i'm selfish. couldn't agree less....* by now, i already have a pile of tissues beside me...
so u can noe how bad m i crying...
it's just that maybe u r too gud to me....
even too gud for me ??
that i m afraid of ur decision on leaving.
i m concerned about u...
do u noe how much i worried that u might one day just leave me ?
do u noe how afraid m i ??
do u noe how bad i felt when u were with other girls....not to mention being ALONE worsen things up...
it's just so complicated...my mind's spinning....n i dun feel like talkin to anyone.
i'm so tired.
wishesfreedom
gosh....boring giler...nth to do now...
cant move around much...cuz i just REPAINT my nails...
dun wan it to look hrrible on the 23rd...
my.........i'm soooooooooooo lookin forward that day now....
due to too many layers of mix n match nail polish...if i bang my nails near a drawer...even though SOFTLY !
it will be deformed....god....can't it harden faster...it's been quite some time already....my nail polish still can actually "be pushed around"
ok...that sucks !
even typing can actually destroy my nails....i tink i had destroy them like 5-6 fingers already ??
haih....but i oni erase off 2....the others simply cover here n there....hoping no one notices...=X
i can't wait till wednesday !! =P
hmmmm....he's gonna be headin OU tomorrow....so i oni can see him in the mornin....which would be like wat ?? less than 5 mins ??
haih....how sad....
monday he's gonna be at genting for trip with his friends....n i won't be able to see him *sobs.... :'(
maybe back on mon night or tues....
i'm gonna miss u ....LIKE MAD !
wishesfreedom
yesterday sucks.
my phone rosak liao T^T
i love my phone...how can it be so cruel to me... :'(
the cancel n end call button just isn't working....till today ! even if i off my phone...it's still no use...
crappy crap.
i just so tak biasa lor...usually wanna get out from something sure press end call button...now tak guna liao....
i wonder call ppl how i goin end call... =S
must wait ppl end call liao...haih...pitiful huh ??
now type sms...wrong one word aso "gao gao" ( means teruk ) liao !
have to retype the whole thing....just imagine u wrote 3 sms slide....n the last word wrong ! u cant backspace at all...very cham geh leh....T^T
now delete sms aso so slow....tortoise aso can win me liao....keep on press the NOT WORKING button...ugh ! outta service ~ ==''
n even cui have probs with phones ! wth ?!
she lost hers unfortunately...
yesterday as well ==''
COINCIDENCE DOES HAPPENS.
she went to OU with her aunt family...
when balik naik taxi...phone fell off frm pants pocket...
n there flies a phone ~
she called her phone...at first rang...but soon off edi...die la...means no hope jor...
either next customer took or taxi driver took...
not a gud year for phone huh ??
more bad luck : i just broke my finger nails a few seconds ago ! wat the heck ?!
n now cui think that someone put a curse on her...she's wonderin why is she so unlucky...
went to Desa Park City today for a "walk" :)
had great times with him,cui,ivy n jia bao ( is that how it ought to be written ? sorry if i'm wrong )
even though we're just there for just a short period of time...cuz it's drizzling later...three of them run...just me n cui walked for one round...we dun wan run =P
we're chit chattin while walkin....n he said about his trip to genting...he did said he's goin on 31st dec n back 32nd dec !
since when our calendar add one more day liao ?? xD
he actually meant to say 21st n 22nd... =X
haha....he said wrong...din admit at first...but later gave in...xD
then later han "beat" me for teasing him n chased me around....so i have to run after all ~
we raced to the chair...n he cheated ! hmph ~ unfair...i bite u then u noe ! rawr ~
play a while at the playground...felt so dizzy sitting on those equipments...
then i continue teasing him bout stuffs he used to say wrong last time...
keep on 31st n 32nd...haha ...we all laughed...well, he's embarrassed i guess...=X whoops ~
then i say back giraffe eat grass...jellyfish,octopus n sotong...( i guess i didn't manage to mention wat happened last time in my blog )
so oni he noes wat m i sayin =P
haha ~ awwwwwwwwww ~~~~~~~ how cute ! so adorable =P
then he keep on tune up the volume of the song to drown my voice xD
went to skool to get some books for next year...n tis time...he teased me back...sayin poor me...have to buy book for next year n he doesn't ....lol !
wanna cekik him jor...but he driving ...better not....later all involved in car accident...xD
the stupid skool bookshop dunno makan money or wat...darn expensive....
per book increased i tink 30 cents...well u might tink 30 cents is nth...but ahem...u must noe we dun oni buy one book....
n not oni one student buy book...
they freaking cheated us !!
NO FAIR ~~ we need to voice up ~
fight for ur rights fellow students.
they sell in a set now....10 books will have two pens together...n the damn pens...cost two bucks per pen....so for twenty books....u paid extra 6 bucks !
god....money sucking humans.
uncle joshua's house.
carollin time.
in love with this dress :)
edited...dress looked different...xD
darn...i looked odd..
blek ! =P
i got my nails done ! *left hand
self-manicured :)
tada ! *right hand ~
uncle joshua's house.
carollin time.
in love with this dress :)
edited...dress looked different...xD
darn...i looked odd..
blek ! =P
i got my nails done ! *left hand
self-manicured :)
tada ! *right hand ~
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